Art works in weird ways

I used to draw like strange but cool things all the time. I suck at drawing but I was able to put the darkness in my head on paper. Anyway after I got diagnosed and have been treated I can’t draw anymore. And sometimes if I try I have a psychotic episode… anyone help me understand this a little better?

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I used to make origami, since I started hearing voices it’s incredibly difficult. I rarely if ever touch it anymore.

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Por que!!!? I hate it😢 @fractaled

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Origami is awesome also I learned how to do some in 2dm grade

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I started in my mid twenties. Put eight years into it, only to be decent. It ties up my stomach when I think about having essentially giving up on it.

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I’m sorry, you don’t have to talk a bout it if you don’t want. It helps me a lot to talk about my broken dreams @fractaled

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I don’t do anything I don’t want to do. It’s fine to talk about, just feels worse than other stuff somehow.

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I understand that… my biggest dream, I trained to be a mma fighter. I loved it and was good at it. Was the only thing that gave me peace of mind. And well you know what sz does to you

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It seems like sz is somewhat of a creativity killer. I used to be much more creative also.

P.S. I suck at drawing too, always have.

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I’ve heard befor that if you’re in a state of psychosis you have no imagination, to the point some optical illusions won’t work on you. Idk if that’s true but…

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Lol aye, sz is not peace of mind.

Although I do think more creatively than before, I find putting it to practical use is almost impossible since psychosis.

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It’s an evil thing… I don’t even know if they would let me train again with the problems I have. I mean it’s not even that I like hitting or hurting people it’s just being in that moment where you can’t slip up and takes all your brain to do it well

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I bet it takes real skill, and dedication to learn it.

I’d love to have some kind of physical prowess. I hope to one day learn a martial art, but not sure which.

Tbh I might end up liking hitting and hurting others tho lol

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Do you wanna be like a striker or submission type stuff?

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If you’re serious about wanted to learn. I can at least point you to one you would like or maybe be good at

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I have no idea.

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I am, but I’m not sure when I could be able to start. I’m poor af currently.

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Yeah me too, it is expensive to learn a legit martial art

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But if you ever get the chance and wanna try. I would suggest learning jujitsu and kickboxing or boxing

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I have a friend who knows jujitsu. He encourages me to learn it. I think I might do that, when I can.

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