mostly just salty.
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Not bitter really, just very angry at the whole world. I work things up every day in incidents, then I realize I am harming myself with the anger and drop it. Itās just unnecessary attitude.
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I get too paranoid that my roomates are scheming to use my hygiene products and other meaningless materialistic possessions to get out of buying as much for themselves. Sometimes it gets bad enough I go hiding my shampoo bottles before they can shower. Itās only when I find myself flipping out when I realize im just imagining things and being angry and bitter for no reason, Im able to drop it easily enough once Iāve flipped out and started screaming at people. Unfortunately they donāt drop it as easily as I do.
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If it were me, I might end up buying the things for them as well so they wouldnāt have to buy them themselves and would therefore stop using mine. This might make me feel generous although I would still secretly know that I wasnāt being generous
The problem is they donāt actually even use mine. Itās strictly delusional. They all already know im too sensitive about my personal belongings so they donāt touch or even move my stuff. I still flip out on occasion
No Iām not bitter. The illness is not going away anytime soon , so no sense in putting any energy into that , it will just chug along or burn itself out.
In terms of life in general there are a few decisions that were made that effected my life when I was ill . I was just not strong enough at the time to influence that. So my present frame of mind is to make sure that I make that right , and not blame and wallow in self pity in the future.
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