I like to think it is just a fact of life and normal for how some of my family members are, but it is getting hard to deny the obvious that they are ■■■■■■■ evil people.
I think youll find most schizophrenics have a less than ideal childhood.
I shouldn’t give it power, but it is hard to deny the fact that the way I am treated by my family does have a negative effect on me.
My dad has anger management and control issues. He’s improved a ton from how he was, probably because he realized how much we hated him.
He loves his family and puts us above everything else he just…really isn’t very good at managing his stress levels. It was real bad when we were younger, he was never physically abusive but emotionally yes. He would scream at and curse out my mom until she cried almost every night. She got the worst of it, with my brother being the runner up.
I’m so glad that hasn’t happend in years, or if it has they got better at hiding it. He’s even starting to help out around the house now, which was unheard of before. I used to hate my dad so much I would fantasize about killing him. Now I like him and appreciate how much he’s improving.
Yeah, that rings a bell. I am trying to get over it though. There’s something to be said for the idea you can only be victimized if you allow it.
Marilyn Manson once said that people tried to turn him into a victim but he did not allow those people to affect him that way.
For me it was society. No one in my family has faced the same treatment as I had.
If your not supported then we’ll youve got a lot of additional challenges.
I remember the day after my suicide attempt I wound up in the hospital and the first visitation period all 5 of them were there. Really the most powerful moment of my life. At the time it was still a wtf kind of thing. But looking back and remembering the emotionality of it. Well ■■■■ they all care…
It’s weird… ■■■■ dude I could cry…
Anyways ■■■■ those assholes that drove me to this ■■■■. It took about 50 very important people. Was only a few words from each but it ■■■■■■ everything up.
Don’t know what to say man. I hope you can still fix what’s broken.
Yeah, I rarely talk about my issues with my family, and I told some bitch about this online with whom I was on friendly terms, and she got on my case and advised me to either institutionalize myself until I am “better” or live in a homeless shelter. Then she argued I had no right to be insulted or to think she had misconceptions about how the system actually works if I am going to rant to her in the first place. I hate what some of you call “neurotypicals” sometimes.
We all do… They live in bliss compared to our ■■■■… But we become psychological masters. See impulses reactions and ■■■■ for what it is. We rise above. We still have all the problems anyone else does but it’s life or death for us to figure out how to be happy and control ourselves. Not saying all sz do. But the people on this site have a good track record.
Gotta respect those who put a roof over your head. They have a lot of power but people are reasonable. They do it cause they care or because they feel obligated. Hope it’s the former dude.
Your still young man. You can do whatever you want. People probably have no idea your sz even if you act erratically people just don’t make that assumption.
Good luck man. I don’t support your beliefs but I can tell your intelligent and if you applied yourself to real world ■■■■ you’d do fine. Better than most of suspect.
My father is a bit of a pedophile
My living situation isn’t perfect, but it beats a homeless shelter or a mental institute. It is sometimes therapeutic though to complain when you are mistreated.
You’ve got open ears here. If you don’t want to make it public feel free to pm me.
For me it’s best to let the past be forgotten and not in focus. It still surfaces sometimes but you get better at coping every time that happens.
My family life was quite dysfunctional in that my parents were highly intelligent but not big on demonstrating positive emotions towards us. I wasn’t physically or sexually abused but some might say there was a degree of emotional neglect .
It’s quite a mystery how I got into all this. Good childhood, no bad genes, only things that can possibly be called trauma’s happened only in adolescence to me. They were mainly because of poor choices in life and a shitty attitude. But people have experienced a lot worse without ending up with sz. It was a bit of bad luck, and my own choices that lead me to this. I’m okay with taking the blame though.
I think I need to spend less time on the computer. It gets old after a while.
It’s like 50% of life at this point. Good luck staying away. It’s so easy to just log on and read. I certainly can’t stay away.
I think something is making a push for change in my life.
I need to change as a person and so does my lifestyle need to change.
I think I pushed my philosophical explanations for this to the limit. I’ve said all there is to say.
I feel that to sometimes. I think about changing anything. Just to change something. I don’t know how to grow. I could quit tobacco. But that’s tough. I reverse my ambitions after a few hours.
Bro…
Perhaps your ready to see it’s not real.
If sz was real then this world would truly be ■■■■■■. As pans says from the beginning.
Good luck sir Deimos.
Loose the ale stay away from cigs and go back to school. Your obviously smart.