I don’t really have any anymore. The meds kind of took everything away from me. I used to really enjoy reading and studying and especially reading medical research and studies. But I don’t have to concentration for that anymore.
Now I don’t have any hobbies except being on here.
I like you @LED you’re smart btw you have saved me a ton of money by using reusable k pods like you suggested…seriously thank you
I have a 2.5 year old daughter.
Thank you and back at ya.
Could we try to understand that it does not mean that no one misses us or cares for us but there are a lot of members that changed names and who do not log in so often anymore.
Led It does not mean you are not loved cared for and missed .
Love 
to you guyzzzz!
I guess I do a good job of hiding how bad I’m doing. I’ve always been really bad at asking for help.
Well for it’s worth you’re well loved around here. In a platonic way of course. You’re a good poster LED. Again I’m not just saying that. I often read what you have to say. You’ve been kind and supportive of others. A nice person all around. I do hope you feel better soon. I often say that to others as well but I mean it every time. As a fellow sufferer I’ve had my bouts with suicidal thoughts.
It’s too cold for swimming here. The pool closed in September. Though swimming does sound nice.
@LED where is your support ? didn’t you have a boyfriend or family or something…? if anything to live for is your question…your daughter needs you !!
Here is a video I found funny.
I hope it helps get your mind off of things.
What about going for a swim or something where you do. It need to concentrate but that will help you clear you and do you good…
Anders was manic depressive and a swim or a dip used to clear his head thoughts and body to feel better.
I hold him very high and always will unfortunately we lost contact and I never got clear about us and other destructive ones seperating us and etc
I should not of had others back then.
Another person one of my other closest just lays in bed for a few days when she gets bad depression.
Both of those things work for me too.
Do you see your daughter at all?
Do you know any simple hand craft where you do not need to concentrate?
I can not follow sewing patterns so I am knitting a blanket.
It took me sooooo long to learn how to knit just the basic stitch.
Could you make something nice as a Christmas gift to someone?
Have you got money to treat yourself to some special food or something.
Thai spices once brought my passion mojo zest for living back more.
That’s a sweet and busy age. She’s worth fighting for. I know thats sometimes hard to think about. I’ve been there.
It’s just so hard. It’s hard to feel like she wouldn’t be better off without me around. I know that’s not necessarily true. And who am I to say. But that’s how it feels right now. And I don’t necessarily want to die so much as just sleep for a really really long time. Maybe 5 years. Or forever.
that’s really scary stuff you are saying…of course your daughter needs you !! just because she doesn’t talk she can’t tell you “I love you” yet…but she does and she would be ruined without you…please don’t hurt yourself…where’s your support? @Ninjastar @anon9798425
I see my daughter every day. I’m a stay at home mom, so she’s pretty much my whole life. I used to knit and crochet but the arthritis in my hands acts up when I do it for very long. So it’s more of a chore than anything anymore.
She talks a ton. And I’m not going to act on anything. Just feeling really depressed. I can’t talk to my husband because he’s also depressed and has his own issues he’s dealing with. I don’t want to burden him with mine.
I definitely noticed. You raise the IQ of any room you’re in.
@LED
My daughter is also 2.5. Do you enjoy making crafts with her? Michaels has Christmas craft kits on sale for $4
You’re too sweet.
I’m not actually free with compliments because most people irritate the hell out of me.
If you get a compliment from me it’s genuine.
We just finished the lasts of our Thanksgiving crafts from there today. I need to make another trip. I’ll have to take a picture of our crafts wall. She’s been going crazy with turkeys and those foam stickers and foam leaves. Our wall is covered. Lol