Lately I’ve been getting more and more depressed and sad and hopeless. I guess I just need someone or some people to talk to for a good minute tonight. Like a therapist but online and I could pay for an online therapist but I’m trying to save money up for Germany.
Anyways I’ve been getting sadder and more hopeless. I just want to lay down and die. I feel terrible. And what really kicked it in high gear when it really shouldn’t have was that my wife went on a trip to DC with her best friend and our kids. She lives in Virginia. But I also went on a trip this weekend. We dont live together right bow but we’re together and will live together again in Germany when I go there in like about 2 months. But she went on a trip and i got so depressed. Like I want to spend the time with her on trips like we always did.
And Ive been so paranoid about driving more than usual and the number One 3 lately for some reason. I just want to cry with my cat and my dad’s dog right now.
Im thinking about seeing my psychiatrist this week I think if I can toughen up and drive over there… But ughh. I just feel like the walls have been craving around me the last 4 weeks. My schizo has been acting up again and slowly but surely getting worse.
I’m sorry you’re having to deal with this. Definitely call your psychiatrist’s office tomorrow morning. You seem like a good guy. Depression sucks, I’ve had more than my share of it, but things can get better.
What was it that happened 4 weeks ago? I’m just wondering if it was a thought or event on top of your wife’s trip. But if it wasn’t situational, then it’s a chem imbalance that just happened.
@Borath it probably started earlier but I didn’t notice until 4 weeks ago. Voices,getting sad a lot, Paranoia. And now this trip just tipped me off the edge. I just feel so empty lately.
@Montezuma I currently live in the US but I’ve never used a crisis hotline. Idk if it’s like talking to someone that is trained or its just like a suicide hotline and they just talk your ou of it or it being like a psychiatrist/psychologist/terapist chat. I thought about the veteran crisis hotline but again never heard of any experiences
I would recommend help lines. I call the local mental health line a few times a week as I wake up really early and have nothing but my broken thoughts to deal with.
Sweet. I might just gather the strength to go upstairs and grab my other phone that has service. So they’ll talk you through it and just chat and help you feel better I’m guessing? I just thought all crisis lines were for suicide and you call snd they talk you out of it and that’s it. If it’s like just chat to make you feel better then I’ll be using that!
I just looked on the veteran crisis line. You can use it for anything that has got you feeling down like relationships, transitioning to civilian life, feeling hopeless, financial trouble stress, depression, like anything it seems
The veterans crisis line sounds like a good idea. Definitely call your pdoc first thing in the morning as well. Even if you’re not up to driving to your pdocs office–maybe they can do a phone consultation with you.
Well I just talk to the veteran crisis line by chat messenger. I feel a bit relieved! Thanks everyone! And I’ll contact my doc tomorrow of I can! And find a way to get to the office too later this week!
