Hi, when I got ill I thought YouTube videos were communicating directly with me. I thought my son was the second coming of Jesus Christ and I had to save the world. I thought I was being experimented on. I thought my son had been experimented on. I thought something had been done to my body so now I can’t die. So many things all jumbled up. Have any of you ever experienced anything like this?
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Having these thoughts sounds like very stressful and disturbing. Do you want to contact a medical practitioner, who may be experienced in the psychological or psychiatric profession? Not necessarily a doctor or psychiatrist if you don’t want to see one, but it might be potentially helpful for you if you try meeting a psychologist, therapist, or counsellor, and try to be transparent to them and disclose your concerns. You don’t need to worry, practitioners in the said professions are well-trained and can keep secrets. Just try to seek help and those people may be able to help you.
In my first psychosis, I believed that I had a brain chip and people were commenting on my thoughts. It’s stressful, but it’s not true. The experiences that you talk about are common in psychosis and the thing that helps me best is resting and trusting the people around you.
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Yes, very intricate delusions in my case too.
I won’t go into details.
At end of the day, what happens during psychosis is that our brains misfire, especially the parts responsible for imagination and sense of self.
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I have repeat delusions similar to what you are describing.
For me they come and go.
If I write them down in my symptoms journal, then it is easier for me to maintain insight into the fact that these ideas are not real.
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When I’m unwell i have delusions that my death will bring world peace and environmental restoration, a kind of messiah delusion. It’s a big warning sign for me that i need to pay attention to, as that delusion has preceded suicide attempts. I need to get help immediately when i start having those thoughts.
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Ya. I got that. I thought the youtube algorithm was communicating with me. It felt alien, I guess. I’ve been over it now.
How did you get over it?
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