I am curious if anyone else is not just schizophrenic but also has a case of depression along with the mental illnes?
I myself suffer from depression due to the negative things i experienced during my schizophrenic episodes. Also because i know that i wasted 2 years now just being at home or in hospital. not as i planned doing career in my best years (early 20’s). its a shame knowing that i cant relive my 20’s and do the things i wanted to do.
Another annoying thing is that the voices promise to go away like every day now for the last 4 months but i wake up every day to another day of hell with voices and depression and nothing is changing day by day.
How long ago did you got out of a psychotic episode? There is a thing called post psychotic depression, maybe it’s what is happening to you. I had it, lifted after a year when I finally accepted my diagnosis.
It’s very difficult to accept that we have this mental illness, specially with symptoms still popping up.
Thanks. I am not on meds, because they were worsening my condition much more than without meds. And the bad thing was that i still heard voices even while on meds. I think that meds, whether anti psychotics or anti depressants should be avoided as they are not “natural” so to speak. I hope you understand what i mean?
How long have you been diagnosed with schizophrenia?
I have lived my whole life with sz, only diagnosed at 27, I am now almost 29.
I tried the “natural” approach, even went on studying it and it didn’t work for me. I found it not be a valid recovery option. I’m much better on meds, better person even and turned my back on the “natural” approaches because they are often misleading when it comes to schizophrenia from lack of knowledge and appreciation from what a person with schizophrenia goes through.
But it’s your choice. Hope you do well without medication, you can find a lot of coping mechanisms along the way, but your symptoms won’t disappear unfortunately.
Yeah i also fear youre right. But the voices have become alot different from how they were during my hospital episodes. They have become very comical the last 6 months, although sometimes still with “apocalyptic” themes some of the time. Its difinately not hellishly 1 dimensional as it was during my episodes in the hospital though.
You say you were schizophrenic your entire life? How do you know that? What made you realize this?
I had paranoid behavior as a kid, around 7 or 8 years old, had thought broadcasting around 14 and 15, that vanished and came back when I was floridly psychotic two years ago.
It’s one of the dangers of being off meds you know, ending up too crazy. I hope you’re aware of that.
So you were depressive at 27-28 and now youre ok at 29? What would you say was the best year in your life thus far? Arent the meds causing a little bit of damped feelings for you?
This last year has been the best so far, also, there werethree years in the past when I had a stable relationship with a person I loved and was doing fairly well and the illness wasn’t a problem. But even so, this last year I made so much progress with myself that I feel it’s the best by far.
I was too emotional before, the meds help balance my emotions a lot.
Meds help virtually all people, just need to find the right one.
I think some might be allergic and have a complaiancy problem, but those are exceptions.
Well i dont know. I dont even think i suffer from a real “mental illness” i only discovered how the world really is - in reality. Not that i am sick. And what i discovered is is that god is in control of all the world and that everything is basically destined to be, how they are now. Its hard to lose this discovery just because of all the things i have lived through to this point. I doubt that these last 2 years of my life will be wiped from my memory like sudden amnesia and i end up with a new life without having to dwell on past “discovered” realizations of the world.
Also i have taken 3 different medications now and they all failed to do any bit of “stabilization” (amnesia) for me. I was on Invega and have also taken Abilify and Haldol. None helped me the least bit. But i got better withouth meds though, not completely good for good though.
Yes. I take Effexor for depression and also help with mood stabilising. I have found that sarcosine does more for my depression than Effexor does, to be honest. (Not that I’ll stop taking Effexor without my doctor’s blessing.)
My positive symptoms (voices, delusions) are strongest when I’m stressed. This morning I have no voices and just the usual itching/twitching from my implanted pacemaker site. I constantly fight the delusion that it is implanted alien monitoring tech. My negative symptoms are persistent and ongoing. I was supposed to do squats and push-ups this morning, but didn’t. Petted the cat and had another cup of tea. Need to find the energy after work.
I hope I never feel ‘normal’ – my life goal is nothing less than extraordinary. Aim high or don’t bother at all, I say.
You think i am deluded? On what points? The god parts?
I was taking Haldold for 6 months every day without any effect what so ever. Abilify i was taking from time to time and i dont even know anymore when i received it.
Invega was given me for 1 year, 150mg then 100mg. Nothing changed for me during that entire year except that i was feeling totally empty inside.
Med free for the last 7 months now. I did have a small “relapse” 1 day (December 2015) though but i was doing fine the entire other 200 days of these months.
I too once thought I ‘knew’ how the world truly was. I’m also treatment resistant and it took about five years for me to start flying right. Went through a lot of med changes during that period. Now that I’m healthy, there’s no way I’m going back. There’s also no way I’m ever going off meds again. The real life I have now is too wonderful to give up for the sick delusions I was trapped in back in the past.
Wishing you the best, but hoping you will consider at least some meds. The no med route almost always ends badly. There is the rare exception, but, like I said, rare. The odds don’t favour you.
If it was up to my voices and experiences I’m god and everyone is out to test me or kill me. I think I trust more what stabe szs have to say about that. My psychotic mind is not to be trusted.