First psychotic break was 10 years ago. Some of the hallucinations themselves were fantastical and fun, informative, insightful, but the repercussions afterward were terrible.
It felt as if a giant RESET button had been hit, my brain had been wiped clean, and I was a child again re-learning everything. Even the simplest tasks like tying my shoelaces felt like an accomplishment for the day. This was all very alarming as I had been a straight-A student before. I thought everything would go back to how it was as quickly as it had disintegrated during the break, but now, 10 years later, there are still areas where I’m struggling and where my brain still feels quite “broken” and fragmented. I call them glitches, and I know it’s just not processing the way other peoples’ brains do, or how it used to. Anyone else feel like their brains forever changed after they had a psychotic or schizo break?