I feel like I have made so much progress in the last 6 months. The world feels like a real place and not just a hell realm created to make me suffer, so that is progress… but I still have so far to go. Even if I do get more stable, I feel like I’ll never get over some things I’ve experienced. Like, I don’t know if I’ll ever stop thinking that there is something weird about these electronic devices… Anyway, it feels like I’ve come a long way, but i still have a really long way to go, and I really don’t know if I’ll ever recover fully. Anybody else been through this or feel this way?
I’m probably not ever going to recover fully… been too much for me. But I don’t know. Voices did not go away on meds, so I don’t know what else I can say about it. I try to avoid all triggers, like reli-gions, tv, social media, people and stuff like that. That works for me when it is calm. I hope I never get another full blown psychosis, which lasted almost two years for me. But I don’t know what the future holds… can never be certain.
yeah the psychosis never ends for me. the antidepressants make me able to handle it at least
If I’m able to keep stress low and on the max dose of Invega. I expect to hear voices without being full blown psychotic. I guess I have to learn to accept that.
lol I’m on the maximum dose of invega too. At least now I’m not running around naked calling my mom a lizard, so that’s a plus. but i don’t think i’ll ever be “normal” though
I’m also past that point. I can’t even engage for too long in normal conversation, but I’m able to do it for a while. That helps in my social contacts.
yeah i can act normal, but it is kind of like i can’t engage for too long without it becoming apparent that i am in a different reality than they are. it kind of sucks tbh
I don’t know. I guess it’s a lot of hard work to stay on the path of recovery. Sometimes I’m not strong enough to put in the work it seems, so I’ll have to work on that . Many people report their symptoms get milder as they get older. Probably I won’t ever fully recover, but I’m not ruling it out either.
It’s been 10 years since my original diagnosis, but I have come a very long way in that time. I just know that there is still so long to go and it is just exhausting to think about. Hopefully I can keep moving forward.
If you guys saw me in 2013 you would be like what in the actual ■■■■ is wrong with you lol. i was in another universe at that point. I’m lucky I’m sane enough to trust people on here now. That means I have healed a lot. I just know that I have a long way to be normal, if I ever get there.
I too was worse off before. I have gotten much better. Especiallly the last couple of years. It provides some hope for the future.
I like your name. It is a positive vibe and influence here. and you are normally very supportive. I kind of wish this community was in person though. i feel like a lot of people here would be interesting face to face
idk if me and @velociraptor would get along. He would get mad at my vulgarity and attack my ankles and I’d have to hit him with a fly swatter lol
Yeah, I guess so. Often I get lonely and it would be nice to talk with someone. A gf would fix most of that for me, so I should try to make myself available…meaning, stay sane.
The alternative is to find another chick who is insane like you. They can come at the situation with a different kind of empathy than a normie.
Yeah. I’m holding all possibilities open, even the mentally ill The important thing is to get along and mutual like each other.
I feel like I’ve made a lot of progress these past few years but it’s still hard to get in the shower three times a week. If I lived by myself I’d only shower once a month.
There were times when I was thinking, “Oh God, my whole life is going to be this way.” I’ve kind of gotten over that now. Life ain’t bad.
I have recovered 100% from positive symptoms.
I gave up on recovering from negative and cognitive symptoms as the only thing that helped these made positive symptoms worse, reducing AP dose and/or boosting dopamine.
I am also free of anxiety and other mental illnesses.