I know now
How you make me feel
Naked
Exposed
Nothing to protect me
I want to despise you
For how I feel
But yet I love you.
How long will I let
You make me feel
Inferior
Indistinguishable
Like my meaning
Only has to do with you.
But I allow you to do this
I can’t blame anyone
This is my doing
This will be
My undoing .
Like that faded rose
I spoke those words before.
They meant nothing
Empty
Meaningless
Like my soul.
You came into my life
Like a tornado
When I was tired of the calm.
I could stop it as easy
As I could quit breathing.
So simple to justify
But there were the signs
So obvious to my eyes
So oblivious
To my wounded heart.
It was just a game
Just like the way it started.
I’m trying not to regret
My mind goes there too often.
Where did I let go
And stop becoming me
And then so quickly
Become you.
I’ve lost the fight in me.
You win.
I’m trapped in the vortex
You create.
Unutterable
Silently
In love with nothing more
Than the way you
Tear my life apart.
I’m hopeless.
That’s the way
It is.