I missed ydays clozapine dose cos I OD’d on benzos and whisky. Weed too. And had to go to the ER.
I’m fine now.
Clozapine has so many nasty side effects.
My throat feels narrow on clozapine, so isn’t that mild anaphylaxis? I also struggle to swallow.
On Clozapine I choked everynight on my own saliva.
I can’t live like this.
Pdocs are evil and cruel.
That combination can kill you. You’re lucky to be alive.
I’ll say what you already know… but whiskey, anxiety meds, and marijuana don’t sound like a good mix. 
I know that kind of lifestyle can be tempting, but hey… you should learn to love yourself and not burden your mind and well-being with unnecessary things.
I guess so. But deep down I wish I had died. Then I’d be in a safe reality/dimension.
Maybe there’s nothing.
Maybe there’s something and it’s worse than here. That’s actually what I believe for what it’s worth.