finished up the sexual harrassment course for school which was due on the 30th, finished my arabic homework. tried to do the manditory online course about managing personal finances, couldn’t bcoz the cutoff was 70% on the quiz at the end, took it 3 times and got 66%. gonna ask my dad to help me with it tomorrow.
relapsed into abusing a drug i will not name on saturday and was in a hallucinogenic haze up until 10 pm. i could hardly put together a sentence, im not proud of what i did but think its important to tell people about this stuff so they don’t make the same mistakes.
interesting that saturday was a bad day and sunday was extra productive. actually came up from the basement to eat dinner with my family today. my brother is back from college in boston for the weekend (found a cheap flight ticket) so he made a turkey and i ate the leftovers for it today. yesterday i was incapacitated/hiding.
jogged 4mi today, im freaking out because im gaining weight recently, scared im gonna be fat again.
now all that’s left is to get some sleep so im ready for school tomorrow.
what interesting things are going in in ur lives, overcoming any challenges? anything good, anything bad? any contributions are welcome.
thanks, thats a great moral to draw from what happened. yesterday i was freaking out and thought i had serotonin syndrome (heart rate was 160+ laying in bed), today i feel unstoppable.
yeah, theres a good chance i risked serotonin syndrome, taking two serotonergic agents at the same time. i had serious racing heart, to the point where i felt weak and lightheaded. it was very scary, but it helped me put my life in perspective. i can either check out and die unnoticed or i can step out into the world and live my life with purpose. i think i chose the second option, but i had a 50/50 chance of going the first way…
How are you so high functioning? Just curious. I am medium functioning. How much classes are you taking? I’m “working my way up” by taking 2 classes and volunteering next semester. My negative and cognitive symptoms improve and have 2 sz friends irl who also improve. Do you improve?
i’m two years into my illlness and wouldnt consider myself high functioning by a long shot. i still struggle with negative and cognitives like the rest of us. im working my way up just like you, taking 9 credits (2classes) at university and working my way up to a full schedule of 13 credits. its tough but im getting better with a medication reduction, i used to be on 30mg abilify, now im on 15mg so im crazier but also a bit more functional, feels good man
i also live at home rather than on campus, most of my family are much higher functioning than i am…, i would not consider myself to be high functioning actually at all
