The only one that still talks to themselves (full blown out convos with my other selves) no matter what?
Think it’s a sign of age more then anything. Just too much rubbish floating around in our heads. Urban myth is it’s the first sign of madness. One of my tdocs disputes the fact though.
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Nah you ain’t alone in that. I’m always talking to myself…
I’m proud to say I’m 2+ years free of talking to myself
I used to talk to myself literally hours each day, then when I took meds it stopped
Proving the effectiveness of meds to me IMO
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Same here. Stopped with meds.
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To me it proves we are sz, we have the genetic predisposition to sz, and it wasn’t just drug induced, that a simple (no a complex) formula of medication can put an utter halt to it altogether. Like if my sz was simply “lsd psychosis” it wouldn’t make sense to me that I can take a pill that stops me talking to myself? And I do have the brain chemistry for sz. I dunno if I make sense but think I do. But some ppl may question if my sz was just drug induced, I know it wasn’t, but this particular example utterly proves to me the legitimacy of my psychotic disorder. But I don’t care either way, as long as I’m healthy now and I am 
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I get what you mean by that, in all honesty I never thought about it that way. I knew I was bit more crazy than most 
I used to talk to myself and imagine people and situations, I don’t know if I grew or if it was the meds but that stopped.
And also talk to myself like OP described. Not anymore also.
If it’s the meds, than great!
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I googled “lsd talking (to yourself)” and the first suggested result was “lsd talking to a hotdog” HAHA
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Yeah My fantasy world I lived in through delusions and hallucinations since I was young makes me know I was sz. Sometimes I say “that’s just what kids do” but I know it was different in my case.
@anna said that us younger sz folks can go undiagnosed for a while because we get “used to being sz”, and accustomed to it, but I think for me, abusing substances made it so unmanageable, the psychosis, I couldn’t just “deal with it anymore” like I did in my high school years.
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Yeah I have the same feeling. I don’t know if I’m either bp with psychosis or sza, but sometimes I think I’m really sza, other times I think I’m really bp, my pdoc doesn’t really want to risk a diagnosis at this point.
When I was 14/15 I had thought broadcasting issues, I lived with it and hid it from everyone in fear of people thinking I was crazy, I was always so cheerful and happy, all the pictures from back then I was always in a great mood, seemed happy. Had lots of friends, lots of fun, started to smoke weed back then and drink alcohol so that helped both things (the fun and the symptoms), but yeah I agreed with @Anna that I hid it for so long until I couldn’t hide it anymore.
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No you aren’t the only one. I talk to myself too, even on meds. And sometimes I talk to Alien too, the man in my head.
I still talk to “myself” but I try to only talk a loud when I’m alone so I don’t freak anyone out but some times I slip up in front of people.
what type of medication did you take?
Abilify 20 mg was the game changer for me
do you still do it as of now?
sometimes when I think of something really moving I will blurt out “yes indeed” or something like that…like a reaction…? I think it’s normal.
I talk to myself and I talk to my cat.
I think I have gotten better at not talking to myself since getting the cat. Now every thought is addressed to him when I’m at home.
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yeah just was
I learned not to, through trial and error. A lot of time spent blushing and apologizing to bystanders whose wide eyed looks made me focus very hard on not talking to myself out loud.
It went from talking out loud to just mumbling to just mouthing words to just biting my lip really hard. It was an effort…still learning on how not to bust out laughing with no external stimuli. Also, sometimes I bite my lip too hard. Sometimes I actually do mumble or at least mouth words, so I’m still working on that.
You’re not alone!