well last night i had another fight dream. i get them at least once a week. my fighting in my dreams is always self defense, it’s not like a fantasy of mine, to start a fight, i don’t think, but i get them so frequently im wondering if im secretly violent and just repress it? or was it just a dream?
i find i can never get into a detailed conversation in my dreams, but am always exploring or whatever, more of an action movie every night.
Maybe it’s your subconscious trying to ward off something dangerous. Doesn’t sound like violence, but more like self-preservation. Humans are naturally programmed to violently defend ourselves, like pretty much any species/organism. Maybe there’s some trauma sitting below the surface with you? I don’t know you inside and out, but it’s a guess.
No! I don’t think you violent Lifer. If you’re more like me (and I have these thoughts all the time myself) these thoughts worry you more times than the thoughts of being violent. Too be seen that way? You know that violent thoughts are normal in normal people.
I’ve always believed that violence can play a role in a moral life and a moral society. The world is much more violent that we think. There have been six times in the twentieth century that over a million people have been massacred. The Turks killed a million Armenians, Joseph Stalin killed millions of Russians, the Japanese killed millions in their rampage through the orient, Adolph Hitler killed millions, Pol Pot killed a million Cambodians, and the Chinese killed millions of their own people. It would be immoral not to oppose such horrible actions. However, that said, there is a quote by Nietszche appropriate here - “When opposing monsters take care that you don’t become a monster yourself, and if you gaze long enough into the abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.” I think I got that quote close to right. The first part might be off, but the part about the abyss is accurate.