I think violent tendencys for us is rare. I bought a gun the only one I’ve ever owned . During my first episode felt people were trying to harm my family and I. Seemed logical to defend myself. Even in the hospital I mostly seen and experienced being frightened and on the other end of violence from the staff over reacting. What do you think?
Well, to be honest, I get the urge sometimes to punch certain people i know in the mouth just once. I would never act on it though.
Only when I’ve felt threatened
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I think violently. sometimes I act out on it… usually not on people. I did when I was younger though. I got in a lot of fist fights in middle school. now I just punch walls sometimes. it’s been a while since I’ve done that, though I have recently felt very very angry and like I wanted to punch something or someone.
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Do you think it’s sz related?
When I was a kid, I was pretty violent, but I grew up in a violent home. It just seemed normal to me. Once I got away from that environment, I was able to learn better ways of dealing with my emotions. Now I am something of an expert in nonviolent crisis intervention.
I don’t know if it’s sz related, but I believe it’s trauma related that I think violent thoughts toward people who hurt me. I think I need to never see my son’s dad again particularly because he hurt my son, so I’m pretty sure I’d kill him if I was close enough. But as long as I never see him again it’s strictly hypothetical. And I’ll never buy a gun…
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No though I listing to angry music and chop off or up various video game foes…maybes I vent anger through those 2 things…and bam I’m less angry as a person…
maybe, but not really. my whole dads side of the family is really feisty and just strong and tempermental. the sz comes from my moms side of the family
fairly often honestly… i dont act on it tho… i used to yell in my sleep.
these days i try to go the extra mile for peacefulness 
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I know what you mean by anger and trauma . I experienced that in the beginning feeling like I was pushed into my illness by certain people. Now I know it was the sz and I would have felt that way about someone else eventually.
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I have never really been violent or agressive or malicious.
I would like to know self defence better as to defend myself.
I am pretty peaceful i think.
I do not get angry often. It is rare.
I think ive felt others hate and anger and it was awful.
Worse though i had sex with such a person who hated me and the memory is awful.Violating and i hate that i allowed it to happen to my body after 5-6 years of celibacy and with someone not compatible and with nada mutual attraction.
I have never thought of harming anyone, not even people who i do not like and who have ahrmed me.
I did buy a book but have not read it yet but it is to educate myself i think .
I had toads on my face which is unusual thing to happen.
What if you have agression and violence and it is for a reason that later proves to be wrong…
then the person you harmed was harmed for a missunderstanding perhaps.
People i do not like i simply want nothing to do with them in any way, shape or form .
Not in any name , way shape or form. Do not want to feel them or see them or hear them.
One side of my “family” I hope to never meet again.
I do not believe they are my real family though.
I truly do not.
I would love to know martial arts in person but I dont.
My body was violent once that i remember.
A girl was copying me and i stabbed her with a pencil in the hand or arm but i am not sure if that was me or someone else in my body…
No major harm was done to her hand or arm or what area it was.
No blood was drawn.
I was bullied as a child and teen but never really practiced self defence or kept away.
Once i pushed a bully up against a wall and said that he is not so tough and that he should stop picking on me.
Again not sure if it was me or someone else in my body because i was not really in my body much as child, teen n young adult. As a child it was horocious. such emptyness, apathy, pain … bää. and my eons were in other peoples bodies who felt fabulous in em.
Better as adult.
im like that i always had fights
i was worse when i was pregnant though, it really got violent like proper fierce.
now i ring the crisis team cos my violent tendencies seem to be OTT xx
xx
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I hate violence…when I was ill I would see my nemesis that I imagined as evil do horrible acts of violence in my mind…the pictures from that still haunt me but I have learned to ignore them so they are a lot less present.
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I have a huge amount of anger in me. It usually comes out as emotional violence, and I rarely express it. When I was young I had violent fantasies. Not so much now.
I’m not violent by nature. I would only use violence if there were no feasible alternatives I could try first or if my life were directly threatened.
I personally won’t have any guns around. Not for fear of shooting someone else, but, for fear of shooting myself. I don’t think it is a good idea to own a gun if one has MI.
I feel violent too at times… but not physically. I just say some hateful words in my head then try to calm myself down.
During relapse… I become as soft as a bunny and as kind as a butterfly.
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