So, I’ve been struggling lately (by the way I’m finally seeing a doctor on Tuesday) and anywhere from lack of motivation, to being in fear, is coming back.
I just recently had a random intrusive thought and it was so bad, I had the horrible urge of acting on it…and well, I kinda did.
I probably shouldn’t have but I guess as long as I’m still alive.
Anyone else have this sorta problem?
Edit: Also I wanna say when it was happening, I didn’t feel in totaly control of what I was doing, like I was being forced.
I have had other people completely control my thoughts and behavior. It’s terrifying. I have done embarrassing and painful (like cutting my wrist and taking all my meds) things while under the control of “others”.
All I can say is meds, meds, meds. I say it because I, myself, don’t know what else to do for it. I haven’t had an episode of loss of control for over a year but I know how it feels, for sure.
I take my meds primarily to avoid those loss of control scenarios and for debilitating paranoia. That’s the main reason I take meds.
To everyone who replied, thanks for writing back, I’m doing okay for the time being but it was pretty scary to go through that whole ordeal.
I had no motivation to write back until now, I just wanted to thank you all for your concerns, and suggestions.
That sounds terrifying. If i even think of acting on mine is would rather die. Definitely speak with your pdoc and distract yourself. Hope you feel better soon!
