Marsha Linehan (one of the GREAT psychotherapists of the last 25 years; see Marsha M. Linehan - Wikipedia) pitches “healthy distraction” in her Dialectical Behavior Therapy as the course of last resort if the pt cannot get to emotion regulation or distress tolerance.
I used it for years. Not so much now, because my PTSD-battered autonomic nervous system gets a little more balanced every day, I can do the DT and ER more effectively, and I don’t need to dissociate so often.
Yeah. I gotta just avoid triggers and stuff. This disease is the worst thing in the world…
Is it the disease itself that’s the worst… or the belief-driven reactions we have to it because of our programming?
The disease is just what it is. There are people on this forum who seem to grasp that and get up out of the box of self-I-dentification with – or as being – the disease.
For them, it’s just What It Is. And they deal with it like they’re quadriplegics or blind. (Which, if you stop to think about it, might be more of a challenge.)
Maybe when you get your SSI you can move out. You could apply for public housing, but you might find yourself very isolated if you don’t make friends easily. I’ve been in an apartment with every creature comfort met before, and I was totally miserable because I don’t make friends easily. I don’t know where you live, but in a lot of places they have assisted living centers for the mentally ill. I’m addressing you from one right now. These places aren’t resorts, and usually when there are a number of mentally ill people living together someone is causing problems, but assisted living for the mentally ill, or some other kind of group home, might be an option for you.
I spent about a year in a board-&-care for the mentally ill a few blocks from my treatment provider. Regardless of the oddities ( 
) , I still thank God for that place.