For me it’s somewhat bitter-sweet. For obvious reasons, it’s kinda sad when you don’t get to be with the person you want to be with.
On the other side, it means that I’m emotionally available this days, which feels great, and when some weeks pass by I just wish the best for that person.
I used to take it badly whenever my interest wasn’t being returned. Nowadays I rarely feel attracted to someone else, maybe due to lack of confidence or just getting older. I always tell myself the right person will come at the right time. And if it never happens, no biggie. I’m not holding my breath.
True, I lack in the social department. With more effort maybe I could improve, but the drive to meet new people just isn’t there. I also find it difficult to do small talk. I wasn’t always like this, it’s an acquired trait and I blame the long years of suffering for it.
I rarely complain, and I feel ungrateful whenever I do, but the suffering was real and it’s still going on, albeit much lessened in recent years as compared to before. Hard to explain it to normies.
I use to het upset but i barley see it as even possible now. Girls want someone smart..strong and good natured but sz or whatever has really made me a difficult person to like sometimes..
I would love to have a partner but im very uncomfortable around people
I have a small crush on the psychiatric nurse I’m talking to once in a while, i know she likes me, but not in a romantic way of course. She is way out of my league, but at least I’m able to feel something romantic.