So I just posted a little tune I wrote and produced to entertain my friends here, and because I always like to share my artwork with people because I happen to like it - I mean, otherwise I wouldn’t bother making it. But I’ve got a serious problem - I’m a maniac. I’ve got schizoaffective disorder in the worst way, and when I start writing music I don’t know when to stop. I can work for 72 hours at a time with ease, and then only quit when I’m ready to collapse on my bed. Worse than that is the effect it has on the art itself. I write these monster tunes that go on and on for a long time.
Few people have the patience to sit and listen to a piece of music by an unknown composer that lasts over 45 minutes. But that’s how long the piece I posted a few minutes ago lasts - 45’ 10". Then I feel rejected when no one replies to the post because no one is willing to take that much time to hear my blathering - even if it’s good.
I feel like I waste my time making music - decades studying and practicing it just to become a freak. And of course there’s no money involved either, not that I’d ever dare ask for any. I don’t blame anything but schizophrenia. There are lots of successful musicians in the world who work for a living just like everybody else, and without this disability I believe I would have been one of them, and in fact, I gave it my best shot. Perhaps I’m not through yet, I don’t know. But I’m feeling really dejected about my work - because music is my work - not a hobby. I’ve done plenty of other jobs, but I need to make music like I need to breathe.
Any other schoaffectives out there who can relate?
Kind of can relate. I make electronic music and post it on the internet and nobody really likes it (I have this preference for heavy drums, weird synths, and repetition). I do it anyways. Maybe not now, but five years from now, maybe some people will appreciate it.
I’ve decided it’s my outlet for my thoughts. I’ve also decided to flood the internet with my beats so that people will at least be exposed to new sounds.
Maybe you can break that 45 minute song into an entire album of mini songs that last like 5 minute each? I have like 0 attention span after sz episodes and I think a lot of us here do, too.
I listened to a little bit and it is nice and fast at the 3 minute mark, very manic-y I like following the quick notes. Don’t get too frustrated, just leave your work out there and hopefully people come around.
Is this electronic music by the way, or are you on the keyboard and drums? Either way, it’s catchy! Kind of like jazz in a way, but like as if the jazz musician was in a manic dramatic state.
Thank you very much for your encouragement, I sure need it right now. Maybe you could send a link to some of your music - I’d like to listen to some of it. I like hearing new and different. This piece was produced with Sibelius 7 software and a whole bunch of synthesizers. None of the instruments were played live. But it’s cool that you needed to ask because that means you couldn’t really tell one way or the other, which was my intention. Success!
Oh, lol then bravo on your awesome trick of the live sensation! I was kind of hoping you were there on your keyboard with flying fingers hahaha and it turns out you were at your computer with flying fingers! EDIT: flying computer mouse
You are very welcome, sir! How do you like Sibelius 7? What other software programs have you used?
I’ll post a song blushes**
here
(I use Ableton and have a midi keyboard but I’m usually lazy about the midi keyboard)
Just have to pick the best song, since you’ll be listening lol
Oh yeah! Sibelius 7 is the premier notation software that then translates into absolutely fantastic music as individual or multiple staves can be ripped to WAV files or MIDI files, and even some other file formats. In WAV Sibelius comes with a huge array of sampled instruments from anvils to xylophones and everything in between. And as for its technical precision it is second to none.
MIDI files ripped from staves can be imported into a DAW and then played through soft synths. I used Reaper for that purpose, and then for mixing and mastering I used yet another DAW called Mixpad and its companion file editing program Wavepad. But I plan on upgrading to Cakewalk Sonar Professional and a New synthesizer called a Z3TA+2.
Actually, I’m a bass player, and we bass players are known to play everything. That’s the way I am - just hand it to me and a few days later I’ll play a tune on it for you, maybe sooner. But I’m getting up there in years - not old really but too old to be jumping around on stage or doing weddings or anything so programming music seems the best option. By the way, I am considering getting a controller keyboard to play. I think that would be cool, but I need a new computer first.
Notation software? oh cool you read and write music?
I click where I think the notes should go on the graphic interface and move the notes up and down depending on how much I hate/like the note being there. It’s time consuming but I can’t read or write music so I just ad hoc the whole song hahha
I listened to Seance and I must say I was so impressed I was ready to fall into a blissful trance. This would be great music to party to - not that I recommend drugs or anything. But just kicking back and having a good time with friends would go well with this kind of music in the background because it is minimalist in a way that would leave plenty of room for conversation and even dancing. And its not boorish like Disco and some other more pseudo-macho forms I’ve heard. Good going! By the way do you use a quantizer and loops?
