I obviously have a hard time understanding which of my thoughts are things I should genuinely be concerned about and act on. But once I’m feeling a little bit more stable I never know how to approach explaining the way I felt just days before.
When you’re coming out of a psychotic episode what do you think of your beliefs?
For me, I realize I shouldn’t act on any of them. But I have a really… impossible time convincing myself there isn’t truth in them, even when I feel a little bit more grounded and able to reason.
This is a huge metal conflict for me so just wondering how everyone else copes or feels about it.
When it comes to things I fought with people over… I’m a little ashamed to admit I think I’ve just let those beliefs become real in the past.
Example would be when I was so sure my friend group were purposefully plotting to steal my 3 year art project behind my back, leading to me excommunicating all of them to this day.
I know deep down I was out of my mind. But when I think about it I’m always going to tell myself I was right. And that they did steal it…
Like I know I’m guilty but I let it stay real and occasionally I lose sight of reality over it again.
except now I know none of them so there is nothing challenging my belief…
and other times I just cant explain what happened to me during the worst of it…
Even when I can rationally realize that the town isnt monitoring me through the clouds. I still cant understand how they know certain things about me when I’m able to think about it clearer- leading me to stay on edge.
I always feel like im going to throw up when i talk/think about these things as well.