I keep having these terrible intrusive thoughts,
hostile brainwashing since early childhood,
no one befriends me despite leaving my details on Israeli forum looking for friends,
essentially my hands are tied at the health club as well to seek friends,
terrible hostile voices and intrusive thoughts all along.
And now my computer is being sabotaged.
@Chess24, You are in the same position I was in twenty years ago. I felt that everybody in the LGBT community of my home town hated my guts. I couldn’t make friends or girlfriend’s for the life of me. I felt they were all against me. I not only thought they were against me but that the whole wide world was against me and hated me. I was very paranoid and depressed about it all because I was so isolated.
Help me gina, I want suicide, help me please, I want to escape Israel.
I hear these dastardly voices, I can’t make it anymore I desperately need a move abroad, I am completely DESPERATE.
I’m sorry you’re feeling so badly @Chess24
Sending (((hugs))) and best wishes.
Mi Shebeirach avoteinu v’imoteinu,
Avraham, Yitzchak v’Yaakov, Sarah, Rivkah,
Rachel v’Lei-ah, hu y’vareich et hacholim.
HaKadosh Baruch Hu yimalei
rachamim aleihem, l’hachalimam ul’rapotam
ul’hachazikam, v’yishlach lahem m’heirah
r’fuah, r’fuah shleimah min hashamayim,
r’fuat hanefesh ur’fuat haguf, hashta
baagala uviz’man kariv. V’nomar: Amen.
Where you from?
Israel 15151515( see the headline)
Oh I thought they were getting you from Isreal like telepathicly
You on meds? Israel is where Zyprexa came from so I will always be thankful to her.
No @gravitywave , no meds.
I am telling you they work wonders, I was a mess, past my breaking point.
telepathic bad actors galore
Did you ever try therapy? Maybe that could help.
Look @gravitywave, Zyprexa is a VERY DANGEROUS drug, it can kill people, even @shutterbug who is
not completely anti meds can attest that it affected him in a horrible way.
Also maybe try some puzzles.
Chess untreated unstable schizophrenia is very dangerous too.
I say this in all seriousness. I would be dead without, a slow horrible death.
I think it is okay to travel and move to other places when you are young. In my own young adulthood I met a few young Israeli men who moved to America, then I was once in one synagogue in Atlanta and met a few older women who told that they traveled a lot when they were young. But moving to a new culture may complicate your life more. Well, I wish you all the best.
If you’re treatment resistant and Zyprexa is the only thing that works for you, then I advise taking it. What really handicapped me is that my exercise capacity is limited by a bad heart. I can’t work off extra weight like most others here. I don’t foresee a problem for you given your exercise habits. Of course, all this should be discussed with a proper doctor.
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