So I’m in a really good place mentally at the moment. I think a lot to do with getting healthier but also being stable enough to make peace with certain things in my life specifically tying up some loose ends from the past.
One of those was my relationship with my ex mrs. I was in touch again but backed off a lot recently. I was falling into old behaviors and I’ve managed to get through all that with some insight. I still have love for this woman but know I can’t be with her as nothing has changed. My reasons for leaving all those years ago are still the same. So. I’m at a point where I can be a friend but that is all it will ever be. That is reassuring to me. I can keep on living and enjoying life without any expectations with that relationship.
So. I’m currently at peace with the universe. At least till tomorrow morning so I will bath in some personal progress and move forward with abandon! Yay for me!