A doctor suggested I had Borderline Personality Disorder

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Dr A said it was ok to come off antipsychotics but he was planning to put me on a mood stabiliser and an antidepressant. I had to be on both. He left that day to work elsewhere.

So Dr B came in, suggested I may have bpd… when I tried to talk to him and ask questions, the way he responded was rather cold. I had a reaction to the mood stabiliser so he thought it would be ok to carry on with the antidepressant. That put me in hospital. When my mum called him, he said he didn’t tell me to take the dose that I took, when clearly it was on the letter what he had told me to do.

Anyway, can you see why I don’t trust the docs… I still don’t have a proper diagnosis. All I know is I am autistic and I get extremely dysregulated. And I have psychosis.

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That sucks … There has to be a trustworthy doc you can find. I know my entire mental health team I trust alot.

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Unfortunately, I don’t get a choice unless I move but even then. don’t get to choose drs… it’s not how it works here. :frowning:

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Sorry to hear that. I hope you get assigned a good doc Milly.

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I would hate to be diagnosed with BPD. With that diagnosis one is seen has manipulative and attention seeking. Its not a good diagnosis to have if you want support.

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Yep! Ive got first hand experience of that.

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I don’t have the diagnosis, but I have some of the traits, like emotional dysregulation but that could be attributed to my autism or possible adhd… but maybe it’s why they don’t even see me as often as a lot of people are seen here… they just keep discharging me over and over. I haven’t seen anyone in almost 3-4 years for my mental health… though I have been assessed for autism

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Maybe this is why it took more than 30 years to even consider it by the docs for me…I got diagnosed with everything from social anxiety to depression as well… but when I would go to them for my “shyness” dr Patel told me to get over it.

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I got completely dismissed everytime I went to the doc with my shyness problem… maybe I didn’t push enough.

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@anon25873142 You really don’t want BPD on your record. You will be dismissed a lot especially when you’re in crisis and self harming.

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I never got diagnosed with a personality disorder. I “incorrectly” got diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome instead. I got diagnosed with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder.

They probably thought borderline, but it never went to a diagnosis. I don’t know. I kind of relate more to schizotypal or schizoid or avoidant or even paranoid type, but idk.

My only current diagnosis is schizoaffective bipolar type. I never had mania, but may have had caffeine induced hypomania or felt that way. I have experienced happiness, less depression, drive, euphoria, increased motivation, less need for sleep, more energy, and was working hard in school/work way before I got sick.

I had real bad dissociation after I got sick where I thought I had de-realization/de-personalization.

My dad probably was ‘tough’ or ‘abused’ me growing up and my step-dad and mom avoided me. My step-dad didn’t seem to care/like me growing up for several reasons.

I think BPD has a lot of stereotypes or stigma surrounding it.

Maybe they thought I was faking Asperger’s syndrome or manipulating them? Not sure.

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I get dismissed as well. Even just today, they picked out a few things like the fact I work and have a home.

Seem to miss out the part of how ■■■■■■■ hard I work to keep it going, and the effort being made is more than I ever expected to be able to achieve

Lots of accommodations are made for me in life, and that helps me keep on going.

But instead of just picking out the standard deck they always do, they ignore the fact that for example anxiety has now manifested into a severe muscle weakness.

This was last week when it started. I couldn’t lift my arms up for more than an hour. They just literally had no strength. I could not stand up without nearly falling over

If they asked the right questions, they might have got that information

But ■■■■ no, they did not.

I honestly can say I tried to do what you all here recommended I do, and that was to diffuse tensions with the mental health team

Well after probably about two years, and making many concessions they still treat me like ■■■■

But yea, back to the point of being dismissed, they will be selective and give any reason whatsoever to ignore signs

I’m even now on Clozapine, and I had refused that for about 5 years or more

Gave up the antagonistic behaviour and I do not feel like I am being respected

Every bloody new person that comes along just ticks the working and independence box and then disregard genuine things that are happening.

this dismissive behaviour from professionals is starting to become some sort of sick joke now.

They do not have detail of what 20 years of ■■■■■■■ treatment has done to me

They do not appreciate that after being diagnosed with SZ that I gave up on support from them and the government after being homeless for 6 months with no end in sight to claiming the benefits I needed to survive

So I had a lucky break working with a family friend, and made working my main activity to pay for life stuff…

But my career has been torched to the ground at least half a dozen times

The toll this has taken is really not good

Now I have the adjustments I need to thrive at work.

Still having problems, but just like them you will dismiss them like they all do in favour of a stereotype of what a Schizhoprenic is doing vs. another when none of us. None of us are the same person. The spectrum of this illness is huge, and not one persons experiences are relatable unless you use a really broad criteria

Sorry. End of rant

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None of that surprises me some doctors are narcissistic ■■■■■■■■ who think they know everything and there actually stupid stupider than I am which is a major problem

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