Yep. They then came to my apartment and scared the heck out of me.
They did nothing but try every trick in the book to have me locked away in a psych ward for as long as possible.
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One time I called a crisis line and I told them I had a razor blade, and I was going to start cutting myself, and an ambulance showed up really quickly, which wasnāt what I had wanted. Iāve called a crisis line and talked for almost an hour before. A lot of how the person on the other end treats you depends on luck. Some of them let you talk as much as you want to. Others are kind of testy.
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I called one when I was about to attempt suicide, and the police came and stopped me.
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I know you arenāt a doctor, but do you think I should mention that I might have OCD? I hate getting intrusive thoughts, and if I were on a med for OCD, maybe I can view life different. Itās good you know your triggers and when it is
That might be something that a lot think, that the crisis people are reading our mind. I once called, and the counselor (who I seem to get every time and once my meds started working better I stopped getting this fear) told me to read my geology book, and she would call back to see what I learned. Well, when she called back, I was learning something about iceburgs (my comprehension was awful) and I imagined a number on the page. It said ā67ā i thought thatās an odd statistic, and then I thought 67 days til Iām dead. My therapist that was getting messages from the dead that directed our session kept getting sick and eventually I never saw her again. 2 months later, she quit the day I was supposed to see her. I went psychotic for a year, couldnāt go in bus stops all while I was in school. Walked 2 miles in 17 degree weather with no gloves because I was afraid to take the bus and thought people were reading my mind or put some kind of curse on me that would make that 67 come true. I went through that whole summer not able to function and gained 30lbs. Still canāt get it off of me. Only went for walks with my case manager for 40mins every other week. Then my aunt passed away and I had a half hour conversation with her spirit. Things were really bad. And it all had to do with the crisis phone call. Turns out, I looked at the book and there was no ā67ā near the pic with the iceburgs?
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Hmmā¦ Well, I suppose you could ask for an assessment, but honestly, OCD meds are just antidepressants and sometimes a low dose of antipsychotics to boost the ADās. The standard treatment for it is CBT with ERP, but @Ninjastar told me about this other treatment, I forget what itās called, thatās easier than ERP but is also pretty expensive. @Ninjastar can you explain it again please for @Winterblues? Also, remember that everyone gets intrusive thoughts, and for most people, neither meds nor therapy will make them go away completely, but treating OCD is not about treating your intrusive thoughts, itās about treating your response to them.
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I used to do OCD rituals before I got sick, and the therapist I was seeing would say āthatās your Ocdā I seen her for 5 and 1/2 years. The first two months I seen her, I wasnāt sz, then after that she treated me for sz, but she never did CBT, or that other thing youāre talking about that I donāt know what it stands for. She just kept me out of the hospital and worked very closely w/ my pdoc. All my pdocs refused to prescribe me a AD because they said Iād be worse, but the one just recently prescribed me remeron 15mg but we agreed that 7.5mg is better or I get voices and Iām in a different state of mind
ERP is exposure and response prevention. Basically, you expose yourself to your fears and stop yourself from doing compulsions, including mental ones. It was vital for me, although a good chunk of my symptoms were psychotic and as such didnāt go away and continued to worsen.
I had called a suicide line. I talked with a mental health expert who advised me to go to a hospital, in emergency room. I didnāt go
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Okay, thanks. I tried today to not listen to music to see what happens, because eventually I want to look for a job and wonāt be able to listen to music, and Iām getting voices. My meds fricken suck.
I would expose my fears which would be this one lady in my town thatās a bad omen, then I would attack her and go to jailā¦ Every time Iām out, Iām ready to attack, I have no fear holding me back
Biofeedback is basically where you go to a doctor and they put a sensor on your head that measures the activity level of your prefrontal cortex (where rational thought happens). OCD and other anxiety disorders shut down your prefrontal cortex and activate your limbic system, where emotional responses happen. Then you do an activity designed to activate your limbic system and shut down your prefrontal cortex. For me, itās watching a movie. And as Iām watching the movie, I get emotionally absorbed and my rational thought shuts down. Then, the sensor reads the lowered activity, and the movie pauses. I have to calmly focus on reactivating my rational thought and quieting my emotions, and then the movie plays again.
It usually costs about 100/session, and you need one session per week. Many practitioners offer scholarships or sliding scale fees, though, to make it more affordable. Iāve been doing it since 2006, and I now own my own machine and do it at home. The machine cost me about 5 grand in 2008 dollars, but now I believe they make ones for $300. It was still very cutting edge when I started.
Itās been a lifesaver for me. I used to get compulsions so bad that I would get hospitalized for it. Now, I donāt even qualify for an OCD diagnosis, because I am in control.
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Yeah, Iām not surprised.
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Iām okay. Over a decade ago I called a crisis line and they called an ambulance. I was just wondering if I could call one just to talk. But I have the forum. 
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