I don’t really know how much of an accomplishment that is but I’m proud of myself for sticking to something that I wasn’t sure I wanted to try and quit to begin with. I’ve been a chronic user since high school with a few breaks here and there. Alcohol isn’t as much of a crutch as it used to be when I’d put whiskey in my tea cup at breakfast time or get drunk to be able to be around people. My problem is I don’t know how to cut myself off from it once I’ve started. And I’m better than that. We all are. I want to love my body. So I’m sticking to this.
I found myself incredibly restless and remembered that weed was a huge crutch for me when it came to just about anything - agitation, boredom, pain, headache. Now that I’m not using it I had to start running a lot more.
I had the flu symptoms for about a week and my sinuses are still acting up. I also noticed a lot of mouth pain almost like in the roots. I read that it was blood flow coming back to my gums.
Hardly any appetite and everything, including the delicious coffee I’ve now given up on, tasted like crap.
I did have hopes that it would relieve me of some of my psychotic thoughts. There was part of me that just prayed weed was the reason I hallucinate even though I know that’s not the case. At least now I can confirm that.
My sleep has also changed. I’ve had more nights with sleep paralysis including last night when the demons were flying above me and vanishing into the ceiling. But I slept 12 hours and feel okay today.
I’ll probably update more every couple of weeks if anyone’s interested.
we all need to stick together!