(((Long Post)))
I Have Noticed That When I Am Kind To Someone They (if they cared about me before) They Cared Zero To Little Afterwards … ,
" you want em when they don’t want you , soon as they do feelings change " - Eminem
Altho That Quote Seems To Be Flipped and Inside Out With Tha Subject e(Y)e’m Trying To Bring Up … ,
Maybe Naught , I’m Slightly Tie Red …
So I have Found Out That If I Am Uninterested In A Gurl and I Wander My Thots Near Them , I Seem To Be Cool To Them … ,
Altho When I Suddenly Change My Perspective and Welcome Them In , They Instantly Don’t Guve A Shazz Anymore …
So It’s A Strange Balance Between Love and Pain … , Possibly A Stepping Stone Towards Love and Hate … ,
Altho I Keep Thinking Of Indifference …Or Thaz Jus A Shortcut To Those Who Fynde Any Slightly “deeper” Thot To be A Sign Of Some Sort Of Weakness … , OR Possibly To Much Trouble For One Who Would Lyke To Keep It Physical , Without Tha Whole Relationship Canoe …
I Honestly Don’t Know … ,
I have Learned As I Was Within A Forest Many Years Ago , That If e(Y)e Were To Lift Weights and Smoke Tha Ganja As I Lifted Weights , I Would Be Mr . ShmexXxie and Some Of Tha Gurls Would Enter Into My Zone With Nothing But Sex and A Wild Sexual Nature … , and I Suppose It’s Tha Sayme As A Guy Seeing A Shape Of A ShmexXxie Gurl , Who Is Naturally Fit and The Guys Can’t Help But Drool … ,
So In A Sense Why Am e(Y)e Complaining (???) ,
Get back Into Lifting Weights , and ■■■■ Every hawttie I Fynde At Tha Nearest Bar … ,
Problem Is , I Need More … ,
A Conversation Is What I Have Actually Prayed For but I Am , As Always Completely Misunderstood and OR Some Sort Of Loser That Doesn’t Understand He Is Completely Unwanted … ,
So I Suppose , Get Over It and Write Some More Nonsensical Songs , Which No One Will Care About OR Even Lissen Too … ,
Pity Party I Suppose … ,
So I Suppose My Question is … ,
Is Love , A Faith For (THA ONE!!!) , Some Sort OF True Love , is It Worth Tha Wait (???) ,
OR Should e(Y)e Give Up On Possible Fantasy Dreams That Always Turn Into Nightmares … ,
Or Shall I Ask Someone Out There For Some Sort Of Advice On What It Is A Beautiful Woman Really Wants … ,
Love Is Love = Awesome & Beautiful = Tha Gurl Of Your Dreams (something That (even as an older man STILL Believe in)) ,
Pain Is Pain = It Hurts , Thee End … ,
So Does One Jump Deep Into tha $INGUlArIT(Y) PUrP0$e and Love His Fun With ■■■■ Buddies (???) ,
OR Should He Web Up His Fountain Of Patience and Search Quietly High and Low For THA ONE (!!!) ,
Which Leads (to me I think) Tha Real and Fake … ,
and If One Is Honest To Himself I Suppose It’s Real , No Matter His Choice … ,
I Didn’t Even Think Of Having My Own Family Til Tha Mid Late Last Year … , Then Tha Gray Sky Caused Some Early Forming Depression , That e(Y)e Tried To Fight Off With , What I Consider Current Oceanic Society Dreams , That Has NOTHING To Do With My Truth Of What I Feel To Be Honest Dreams For Her and For Me… ,
Even Tho I Feel As If e(Y)e Already LOST Tha One… ,
N E Hoo (peace is weakness) … ,
Or So They Say …
Witch Rhymes Wit (???)
Love and Pain … ,
So To Clear Away Tha Webbing Here … ,
My Question Is Thus , Pretty Much To All Tha Femaluse … ,
If One Has Been Turned Down Over and Over and Over , Does That Mean He Should Jus Give Up His Dream Of Tha One … , OR Is Tha One Thing Jus A Hollywood Dream (???) ,
I Fall In Love Easily , but As I Creep Older , I Yet To Feel Tha Way I D(Y)D Years Back … , Almost To Tha Point That I Feel , As If e(Y)e Should Turn Away and Speak Nothing More To Tha Female Population and Jus Gather Fun Buddies and Such … Altho Tha Guilt Would Be Heavy To Treat Such With Such Negative Alluring … If Evn Possible These Days … ,
I Honestly (im rambling now) Feel As If I Am Ten Years Behind …