I have had a lot of professionals treat me a little bit like I am learning impaired, just saying. The therapists knew way better, within an hour of talking with me they figure out that I am not of lesser intelligence.
Do people ever treat you a bit like you’re retarded? Even Fred Frese has said in his speeches that people in the field (hes a scz psychologist) treat him like he’s retarded sometimes.
Like I get so bored sometimes because I do my work very well and very quickly, when I sit down to write or read I have a mission which must be accomplished and nothing gets in my way and I do not stop until it is finished and finished correctly on the first try. Since that is kind of weird, I get my work done earlier than most and then have all day and night to be what I call “An idle American” or “an American idle”, a play on words of the show “American Idol”
Seriously,when I am bored and my brain is not moving people around me treat me like a useless retard,when something interest me and I am in the mood or flow,I am like Albert Einstein…maybe that’s a bit exaggerating lol
For me there was a threshold that I crossed where…I just don’t care what others think , sure I act weird and in some cases scare people but I still live with a forward thought process.
If that’s true, I think it’s because ppl with schizophrenia tend to have symptoms of cognitive impairment. But ppl with schizophrenia are different from one another, so some do have cognitive impairment but some don’t, like you. But I definately do have cognitive impairment. It’d be impossible for me to function as a college student. It’s hard for me to understand stories like novels or even comic books. For those who have seen ppl like me a lot, then it’s almost automatic for them to assume that ppl with schizophrenia are learning impaired. Honestly, it’s been a little shock for me to know that there’s a schizophrenic like you, and I just can’t help but wonder why you are so clear-headed while having schizophnirnia because to me, having schizophrenia means your brains are not the way they used to be.
I’m getting along with the new roommates. I’m learning a lot. Pretty soon I’ll be mean enough to hold my own with you guys. I can be nice and mean at the same time. I prefer nice. I had dinner at my sisters house tonight. Enchiladas yum. Chatted for about an hour and a half. My sisters told me again: I’m a good person. I need to hear that. it’s a tough world but I think with a little luck I just might win. Ah, the games people play, lol. But it’s pretty serious at the same time, lol. I’m sure you all experience the same things I do.
While i was being maimed and they were in my mind shouting “if you talk about us we’ll ■■■■■■■ hurt you so bad you wouldn’t believe!” i might have appeared that way.
Yeah we could appear that way. In the hands of psychopaths we could most certainly appear that way.
I live in an old farm house divided into two apartments. I have a lot of interaction with my neighbors.
My brother comes over a lot. He tells me that the woman below is aggressive and abusive. I thank my brother for offering that reality check.
I’m working on being as crazy as everybody else. I need that elusive x-factor that everybody else seems to have. That ability to just lose it and scare people off. The ability to go off on someone. Because there’s a lot of ticking time bombs out there, men and women. People respect crazy. I used to live where the young hoods “mad dog” you. if you look at them they snap. I triggered it sometimes and it was scary. I need to even the playing field. But this kind of talk is depressing!
I prefer Louis Armstrong’s outlook on life. It’s a wonderful world!
