i had this like a remark from one friend who is not sz… this morning i feel the haldol like a soft dope in me,its running through my body,it feels like cotton a little bit. but i still have the impression that i cant think and that i am stupid. is this will get better? i am quite derealizated i think.
kisses to all of you 
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how long have u been on med…?
@Anna1 i can tell you based on research, that your personality is not changed with antipsychotics. Now that doesn’t mean that you can’t have side effects to your cognition. Retardation a medical word that means slowed can happen. I myself have recently began Haldol therapy.
two weeks. probably i feel still the side effects. in the begining of the treatement i was euphoric but not anymore. i am quite paranoid still…
ah orange, youve started haldol also? you like it till now?
So far it is working for me. I am on a small dose to start with.5mg in the am and 1.0 pm. My Pdoc moves slowly at increases and likes to have patients on the lowest working dose.
ok. i have 3 mg like dosage now. i am on small dose too did you had hurted feelings? i sometimes feel just pain not emotions… you think it can get better on this point?
My case is confounded; I began meds then started seeing a very high caliber therapist. He changed me to a degree, in how I present my self to the world, but I am still dark on the inside, which cannot be eradicated. My personality changed to be the opposite of how I felt- I felt hatred towards everyone and fear of my own uncontrollable suffering. I went from completely asocial to extroverted to an extreme.
I do think the meds make me disinhibited to a degree. Sometimes for better, sometimes for worse.
yes,today i feel hatred also. and envy. i am tired and stoned i think. take care
I feel like the meds have toned down my personality. I used to be quite academic, obsessive, and at some times opinionated. I feel less autistic and less schizophrenic. I feel dumbed down to an extent. It’s weird because I felt risperdal made me more autistic, but it seems to have the opposite effect now. I used to feel like my frontal lobe was shut down. Not anymore.
hi astefano. i also had the feeling that my brain is shut down… i am real stupid for some things… i hope this will get better with haldol…its par moments still in here,sometimes its bearable,sometimes its hell. i am quite autistic also,since child maybe.kiss
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mcdonalds now …
Yes they do.
Not to mention your physical
I don’t know if my meds changed my personality… this illness changes a person as well… so does growing up…
is it meds… or is it Sz or simply aging? For me… could be a bit of all three…
If I’m going to change anyway… I’d rather not suffer while doing it.
Even when I was at my worst… I still liked people… I was still an optimist… in a dark way.
Meds leveled me out more… which can be a good thing… I’m also not so quick to anger… which is good thing.
I don’t have as many swings into hyper manic… down to detached flatness…
I still like people… I’m still an optimist…
I’m just not as unpredictable… I’ve had a few of people from my past say I’m not as fun as I used to be… ( old drug “friends” who liked the unpredictable… high… hallucinating… out of my head me)
I’m happy with myself… and as life changes… I’m going to end up changing too…
humans change…
Change is constant. 
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Nice story from one of Osho’s Book.
There was a MAD MAN in a village (euphamism for Schizophrenia) . The problem with him was that he was Normal for 6 months a year and then Insane for the other 6 months.
When he was Insane - Everyone in the village liked him. Someone used to give him free food, the nearby store used to give him clothes and someone else even allowed him to stay at his home.
When he was insane - He was playful, charming, enjoying with kids and everyone. But he had this wierd belief that someone was behind him. He used to check every 1 minute whether someone was behind him.
Then for the next 6 months he became normal. He wouldn’t check every minute if someone was behind him. But then he became Hard, unemotional and sometimes even Cunning. He wouldnt let a single Rupee (currency in India) go by from him and he would not talk to Kids or even the store and folks who kept him in the home for 6 months. Everyone felt bad and he had few friends and noone even wanted to talk to him. But he never cared , He made money by selling something and whatever he earned he ate for himself and slept alone.
I think this story very well demonstrates about Someone without Medicines and Once you start taking the Meds.
IT IS YOUR CHOICE IN THE END.
When they first started me on Haldol they had me on 40 mg a day. That was bad. Then they put me on the decoate shot - about 150 mg a month. That averages about 5 mg a day. I felt like Haldol did change my personality. I was very unresponsive and withdrawn. I was totally demoralized when I was on this drug. The years I was on Haldol were the worst years of my life. I felt like my imagination and my intellect were greatly diminished. Now I am on Geodon and Seroquel and I feel much better. Maybe you should approach your pdoc about getting on one of the atypical anti-psychotics.
C commented that every time I changed meds it was like dating a new person.
That being said I don’t think that stupid is a character trait. I felt like I had pretty much become incapable of thinking when I first started meds but that went away after several changes and I started to get on better meds. The thing is I thought that my brain was capable of astrophysics and stuff in the seventh grade. I’m smart but not that smart. In other words you might have some grandiose delusions that are leaving your head and that can be depressing.
There’s an uptick though. Before I got on meds I was incapable of love. C was with me for a full year before I was able to love him to the extent that I love him now. It was a combination of sza and ineffective meds. I was incapable of anything but fear, hatred, suicidal depression, hypomania (low grade mania), and regret for things that weren’t even my fault. I fervently prayed every night for God to forgive me of all my sins. Looking back on it it was sort of ridiculous. It wasn’t like I’d killed someone or something.
Such confusion
much medication
wow
Sorry, I’ve just always wanted to use him. He’s sooooooooo cute!
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how are you orange on haldol now? you take it since when? i am on 4 mg of haldol in the morning and 5 mg of zyprexa in the evening :)… i am more relaxed today but still no have confidence… in my worse of my illness i was feeling like another person, splitting? i dont know… it was more that i wasnt focused on myself…
I’m not sure if it was the illness or the meds but my personality certainly changed over a short period of time. My boss at the time was angry at the pdoc and told me to go for second and third opinions since I was not the same person I used to be since I started the meds. I was ■■■■■■in my mind at the time of my diagnosis and the meds really helped for my positive symptoms at the time so I never went for more opinions.
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Unfortunately not. I’m still annoying. 
Pixel.
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