This morning again, I fell asleep while watching early morning tv. Then, I seemed not to have an appetite and couldn’t eat and then couldn’t take my meds. My head hurts and I took some OTC headache pills I got at Walmart. I did drink some chocolate milk and eat about three pecan twirls I got at the grocery store. I feel as if I ate a big steak meal, though. When, I sit up I feel sleepy and cold. When, I lie down, my heart beats loud and fast and I can’t relax. I feel miserable. They are calling for more storms today and then it should clear up until later this week. I bought me a stuffed red and orange dragon for my fire personality to make me feel better. I usually feel better towards evening. But now, I feel miserable and I have house cleaning I MUST do! Will I ever feel better? I don’t think so. I am continuing the belief that I am CURSED! My house is dirty and I feel dirty inside.
I should have added for me it is either insomnia and a loud beating heart or some appetitite stealing “sleepiness.” My problem is there is no middle ground. You know, my late father used to criticize me about having no middle ground; always swinging from one extreme to another. That’s me-no peace anywhere!
i hope so, @Greykitten,
i hope so x
No one should be criticized over the symptoms he’s not responsible for.
I had an insomnia for years. Try not to use the sleeping pills, its a trap and leads only to worse.
Really, the best thing you can do besides the meds…when it comes to anxiety is to get control over your stress level. Try to go through with the relaxing thoughts. They should be repetitive and calm almost like mantra. Worked for me…almost ://
Thank you so very much. My problem is I switch from extreme of insomnia to falling asleep while watching tv at night or in the early am which irritates me. I just can’t be “normal” anymore. I imagine it is the stress, the weather the mental illnesses (I believe I am both possessed by schizophrenia and bipolar disorder), my mother’s judgements about and against me, and the accumulation of all the psychiatric medications that I have taken in past twenty-three years or so! I am very sensitive to the weather as right now we have a storm coming and the winds cause me all kinds of stress. I got to go now and move my car; away from the trees; as we are about to get a severe t-storm! I’ll be back later!
Long periods of bad weather can cause a huge dry up in motivation and make people lethargic.
Here were I live… S.A.D. is pretty real. I used to think Seasonal Affective Disorder was a bunch of hooey… but my family got me a light lamp… and I have to admit… I felt better.
If you have full spectrum bulbs or a light lamp or S.A.D. lamp… it might help chase away the winter blahs… especially is winter is taking over spring. That just might be the pebble that helps start the avalanche of change.
I hope you feel better soon.
@sarad yeh u r right mantra might work if the case isn’t troublesome… thanks anyways.
I’m sorry you feel so down…just keep doing baby steps…you took a shower yesterday and look how much better you felt…fight your depression!
I have learned that I might be subject to S.A.D. also as I am of the fire and air astrological types. I have decided to the best of my ability and according to the weather; I will try to spend some time out in the air, sunshine, and breezes each day. I do like to walk and I always feel better after that. In the springtime, I usually walk after dinner about 7pm or so. When it is dark and stormy like the last two days; I feel very STRANGE AND WIERD! I just don’t like the sun when it burns into my apartment; so, it seems like I am blinded and get overheated. I just took a shower and I feel better. One of my other problems: I think way too much-I have trouble quieting my mind-It is the air in me energized by my primary fire. I breathe the fire of dragons upon a breezy mountain top in a field of daisies and daffodils with a majestic eagle swooping by for inspiration.