Wierd dynamic ocd,TB and persecution

Ive been working on my ocd with the help of my therapist and a really good work book. Ive been making progress with erp and acceptance.

Today i dealt with a super trigger for all of my mental illnesses. I saw something on my internet feed that was related to the thought content im trying to deal with with erp. It wasn’t just that but the feed changed after me being logged out for no reason at the same time as i was having intrusive thoughts about the exact thing that the feed changed to after logging me out. Basically my abusers heard my thoughts and logged me out of my account and changed my feed to something that was similar to the thoughts that they heard.

This was really difficult because it triggered all of my stuff at once and i didnt know how to deal with it. Anyways i started ruminating about people abusing me and how they are trying to create the very thing that im trying to get rid of.

I guess im just concerned that if the other facets of my mental health can strongly effect my erp and confidence then what type of response protocol would i have to do in order to keep my ocd remission going?

Has anybody dealt with Ocd,thought broadcasting and delusions of persecrion at the same time. All three of these are ties up in a big knot for me and im thinking i need more than just erp …

My mom has had OCD for as long as I’ve existed. Everything needs to be perfect. I grew up being a perfectionist. All of my hair had to be perfectly in place or I got anxiety. It made me a perfectionist. Now I let myself go. I take care of my mom. I’ve done a lot of fire side chats with her about psychology books I’ve read. Her OCD is tolerable to me but to a newbie they might think she goes on rants about little things. With my mental illness every once in awhile it bothers me especially when my mom repeats and the voices in my head repeat. Then I throw up the white flag and just listen to music in my bed. Hope you have a good day today. Stay in the present. Good things. Sorry to hear you’re suffering

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Good you got over yours and your mom is a little better… and thanks man. Ocd sucks

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