Why do I have grandiose delusions?

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The afterlife delusion is a bit more tricky to get rid of because we have no evidence of afterlife or its non existence.

But as @anon60704399 has suggested reading some philosophy may help.

I wonder if anything else could help too.

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One idea for the above question ^^^,

Is that if I canā€™t FEEL a spiritual world then how can it exist??

I canā€™t imagine how that can be, can anyone see a way?

Being psychotic doesnā€™t count because thatā€™s an imbalance in brain chemicals. Sickness. I call it sickness because all it does is make me feel shitty.

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For example we canā€™t see electricity but we know that exists because we can feel it through its heat production, sound production etc.

But the supposed ā€˜spiritual worldā€™ , I canā€™t feel its manifestation, let alone see it, (when Iā€™m not psychotic)

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I loved it when I thought I was a genetically modified organism, I felt so important that ā€œtheyā€ decided to pick me, out of billions of people, to modify! I felt so special! Then when my delusion was challenged I would offer some really slippery science ā€œprovingā€ that it was realā€¦it was kind of fun until the meds kicked in and I felt so stupid.

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Mine is ā€œbipolar.ā€ Either I think Iā€™m a total moron or Iā€™m smart.

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Sometimes I feel spiritual world in the wind

When Iā€™m seemingly not feeling psychosis

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And sometimes I feel a nice energy like a spiritual person

When I look out for it in particular.

When Iā€™m seemingly not feeling psychosis

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Hmm I donā€™t think itā€™s because your proud but I do think that sometimes weā€™re all tempted by pride. I personally think people with sz are very quiet people so they become obsessed with these thoughts sometimes. Always thinking and such.

I believe crying is the ultimate expression of humility and the first virtue to aquire. Crying is the natural way of dealing with our emotions. If we refuse to use this natural mechanism we turn to food to deal with our emotions. Then come the 6 other vices, culminating in pride.

Ultimately the solution is to deal with our underlying emotional problems or at least experience them. Even phycology backs this as a basic principle of therapy is revisiting past trauma so that we can experience and grieve those pains.

If we do this often it becomes habit and allows us to deal with the hardships of life.

Imagine there is a cup of suffering within you. If you donā€™t pour out the tears occasionally or daily even, you turn to anger etc to ā€œprotectā€ yourself (really our pride) when others are rude to us etc. instead we ought to let our tears fall and maintain our inner peace

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Help me peeps lol. Delusion of reference right here!!

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Thatā€™s beautiful. Did you just write that free style.

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Maybe I can hear my ancestors in the wind. Because after all, thatā€™s what Iā€™m made of. Just recombined.

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When Iā€™m not in psychosis Iā€™m similar. I get these beautiful feelings about the universe and the human condition. When Iā€™m psychotic it goes away.

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I hope your psychosis isnā€™t too bad. Yea the universe is mysterious.it Leaves space for us to wonder.

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ive never had a grandiose dulsion. i had to look up the types to see which i had and it looks like mine have always been persecutory or sometimes somatic

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Lol yea thanks :smile: I appreciate your kindness :pray:

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That also sounds rough, did they go away completely

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no. they bother me everyday at at least some level especially since i quit my medicine

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Oh OK thatā€™s challenging, I hope it leaves you at some point completely
You never know.

I just realised my delusions are nonsense

How can my ancestors be in the wind when all it does is trigger further psychotic symptoms of sickness. It must just be the wind and was my imagination going hyper, great, lol. Because itā€™s just making life too complicated too. Itā€™s best not to bring my ancestors into this life. Leave them in peace and therfore, I can be in peace too. Regarding that.

I canā€™t be encouraging my own delusions. Because that strengthens psychotic neural pathways in my brain until it gets to complete psychosis meltdown.

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I just like the idea of my ancestors being around. I thought it would give me motivation.

But really, it doesnā€™t, because it gives me psychotic relapse fear.

So it canā€™t be my ancestors.

The wind is just wind, beautiful as it may seem

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yeah i try to avoid everything that will strengthen mine but if i wanted to avoid most id have to avoid every single person in the world and on the internet. and then it would prob just become governement, or somatic like happened before. theres no escaping it

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