well the urge is not really strong. i just think about sometimes. like when pumping gas
I have never checked myself into the Hospital because I lack insight when I become unraveled.
I never think that there is something wrong with me even when obviously there is.
I become so Delusional that I completely lack insight.
(Anosognosia)
Other people like my parents end up calling the police on me.
It is time for me to go to the hospital when I feel like I am disconnecting and losing control. I can feel when I start getting âspaceyâ and thinking very weird things. That always precedes me losing control and behaving in an crazy or dangerous ways. I will also go to the hospital when I am overwhelmed with paranoia and canât manage it. No hospital in almost a year. Hopefully that will turn into âyearsâ.
when i am doing poorly i just shut down. i do not know how i would check into the hospital. i would just go to ER and sit there and not say anything
It is funny, you want to know one secret of gypsies in my region (now it is not a secret any longer), young gypsies actually sniff gasoline to get highs ⌠many whites do not know this.
Some people go into the hospital before they hit bottom or however you want to phrase it.They go in as a preventive measure while they still have their sanity.
Its probably the smart thing to do but I never do that. I have only gone into hospitals when I am a millimeter away from totally losing it. I go in when all systems are feeling down and I feel mentally sick, mentally weak and shaky. I go in only if I feel like any second Iâm going to become a screaming maniac. Except for a two day hospitalization last year, I have pretty much left those days behind. Before those two days last year, I had not been hospitalized for over 25 years.
To be honest, I donât miss those days 25 years ago.
It seems to me that when I donât want to go to the hospital they drag me there kicking and screaming, but when I do want to go there they wonât take me. I can see their reasoning, but it still stinks of bureaucratic thinking.
the only time i ever was in the hospital i was taken for misuse of 911. that was 5.5 years ago
Iâve been in the hospital a lot. Seems like they canât wait to take me there.
since i have been on resperidone i am pretty relaxed. sometimes too relaxed so that i am sedated
That is why I take my risperidone at night. It knocks me out. I take it along with Trileptal which also makes me tired. I tried taking it in the day when I first got sick (and I was in the hospital) and I had to sleep during the day. They quickly started giving it to me at night.
The warning signs for me are deep depression when I canât look after myself or my husband and when this persists for longer than a week. And severe desire to self harm or when my thoughts go jumbled and I dont recover within a few days. Basically when I donât feel safe and when I am a vegetable unable to clean, dress or cook.
Iâve never done it but I know people who have. They call it âhuffingâ.
I can relate though Iâm not really too relaxed or sedated, just dulled emotionally.
@ejmâŚ
Can you get a doctorâs note to give to your employer to get your job back? If not, perhaps some sort of compensation is in order? Perhaps it would be wise to talk to a lawyer about this.