Hello, first time poster here.
I’ve got some thoughts that some people don’t like me (though I don’t have any real proof). I’ve seen a thread here saying that it’s due to paranoia. But EVERY single neuron of my brain is telling me that it’s not.
Can someone help me with these thoughts? How can I recognize that it might be for real? Any kind of help related to paranoia is welcome.
It has occurred before, but it went away quickly when I started to chat with people. I don’t think I can do the same with this situation. I’ve read some of a book named “The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck”, specially the chapter that says “Don’t just sit there. Do something. The answers will follow”. The thing is: I can’t do something about it. Really. So this doesn’t help much.
Yes, I know that.
The problem is that it’s happening more and more (more intense too), also, it’s happening in places where I’m completely new. This keeps me from talking to people, having a “good time” and a more successful life.
It gets worse in places where I’m known.
@LinusTornados, I recognize your problem. For years, I thought everyone. And I mean everyone hated me. And I couldn’t figure out the reason why. I thought I was loveable. I wasn’t depressed. I was paranoid. I think you should see a psychiatrist about your problem.
Thanks Pianogal! Well, I was between these two, but I don’t think it’s social anxiety because I don’t fear being humiliated or anything.
If it’s paranoia, I want to fight it by myself. Maybe I’ll get something good out of it. If it doesn’t work out for the next 2 months, I’ll see a psychologist (I really don’t want to do that).
@everhopeful, I acknowledge that. You can never expect everyone to like you, it’s normal.
Not really, the psychiatrist that I saw didn’t help me at all, all he did was give me some meds for the hallucinations (Risperidone). I’ve dropped it because I said that I’ve felt terrible, didn’t really know how to explain. He didn’t want to try other meds or give a proper diagnosis (CID 10 F29 if I’m not mistaken).
Some part of this problem is also my fault, I didn’t opened up to him like I should.
@SkinnyMe, thanks for the response, at least I know that I’m not alone with these terrible thoughts. I’m kinda “unfaithful” about seeing a psychiatrist (the reason you can see above on this reply).
Do you mind me asking how did you cope with this?
Thank you guys for all the responses. I really appreciate it.
That didn’t work out for me either. All I can suggest is go back to the psychiatrist and say you’d like to try another med. I had to try many before I found one that I could tolerate that worked.
@LinusTornados, To be honest, I didn’t cope with it very well. I went around accusing everybody that I knew well of hating me. People that I didn’t know well, I just suffered. I was finally relieved of the paranoia when my wonderful pdoc added a third antipsychotic to my regimen of Risperdal Consta and Geodon. This third drug was Seroquel. Ever since I have been on 3 antipsychotics, I have not had hardly any paranoia, telepathy or mindreading symptoms, which I suffered from all of my life.
Can you go to a different psychiatrist and be open with them about your symptoms so they can give you a proper diagnosis? Also, let them know your experience with the Risperidone.
Linus Tornados, People do talk. Just ignore it. Not everybody likes us. You could try to talk to them and find out and you can check things out with people but be discreet. Be gentle and not accusatory. We also have a error in our thoughts sometimes, we can perceive wrongly, anyone, first impressions are sometimes wrong, like that. Be open, be real, be friendly.
I think I have an idea.
Ok, so, the problem is wether it’s paranoia or not. Usually there wouldn’t be an easy way to figure this out because it’s kinda hard to distinguish from “real thoughts”.
But let’s say I keep a diary of my thoughts to keep track of them. Everytime I get suspicious of someone, I take a look at this diary, if there’s something even a little related to it, it’s paranoia. And if, for example, there’s nothing much happening on my brain in the last days, it’s not. This decision process could be biased, I just need some self discipline to counter that.
This might work, but there’s still the problem of my brain flooding those thoughts on me. But hey, one step at a time.
I don’t know if I explained it well, but is it a good idea? What do you guys think?
@LinusTornados, I coped first of all by complaining about my paranoia to my pdoc every time I saw him, insisting that the paranoia was torturing me. ( And it was!). He finally ended up having to put me on a total of three AP’s: Risperdal Consta, Geodon, and Seroquel.
I also have a few tricks up my sleeve for self care that I firmly believe in, and so does my pdoc. And those are: exercise, meditation, prayer, hobbies, playing an instrument, sleep hygiene, good nutrition, volunteering or working, socialization, and pet ownership.
Right now, I think my grandniece hates me. But, I don’t think this is paranoia unfortunately. I think it is very true. I need to speak to her mother about it.
