What would you do? I think i would set about trying to start my own business, i’d like to do that now but the way i feel in myself just get’s in my way of doing anything.
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cook, write, play hockey, travel, see concerts, help the needy, and drink.
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Who knows, I probably be high as a kite running on of the sub shops here in town. That’s what I was on my way to doing before the onset. Been saving a lot of money. Would’ve had enough to support a gf or eventual wife and family. Could have bought a house. Would’ve been living the American Dream.
I’ve grown to like my life at this point. If my sz goes into remission I’ll probably find a way to get back into school and get my degree.
If sz wasn’t an issue I would have never stopped doing drugs, because of sz I can safely say I’ve had enough trippy experience. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel the same way about people anymore, it’s still really difficult to see that they are all not mind readers and the sz is just a part of my runtime.
It’s really ■■■■■■ how reality can be so easily skewed by hallucination.
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Honestly wish I knew what I wanted to with my life. Makes a big difference working towards something than just existing. I envy you knowing tbh. Not sure why you are holding back although know to trust peoples timing judgment. If nothing else try to research as much as you can while you have the time. Might motivate you to just say wtf and give it a go or learn more about it to be more skilled and savvy to that world.
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Not certain if that was directed at me, but I’ll say the chaos that was in my mind was to much to function with. It’s starting to clear up, at least part time, given just a few short months I should be a lot better off once this clarity becomes a little more cemented in. Then I start think about how I want to proceed.
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I would go back to college and get my degree. My fantasy is to go to graduate school and become a professor of semantics.
At my age probably nothing different.
I’m the one who got in the way of life, don’t think SZ can honestly be blamed for everything.
My psychosis doesn’t bother me so much to be honest. It’s the anxiety that messes everything up and makes the psychosis a problem.
If I could live a stress free life, oh man I’d be a happy camper. I feel like I could accomplish endless things if I eliminated my anxiety and had more energy so I wasn’t so sleepy all the time.
Hopefully your anxiety will fade in time. I used to be pretty anxious which made me nervous. I thought it’d be that way forever but that isn’t how it turned out. I think it’s more a problem of the youth.
You don’t know how much of a relief it is to hear you say that…I really hope that over time it will go away…
If I didn’t have schizophrenia, I would be in Navy ROTC with the intention of becoming an officer in SEALs right now. I would have majored in criminal justice or perhaps psychology like I am today. I would have served in SEALs and the would have weighed my options about what to do next- get a J.D. and apply for the CIA Special Activities Division or forget the J.D. and transfer to the FBI Hostage Rescue Team.
I was planning on giving my life to the U.S.A. because I didn’t know what else to do with my unique cluster of personality traits and talents. I was on my way to being a refined killer. I respect people who do what I wanted to do- I just see my life so differently now. Studying psychology and preparing for the GRE with the intention of clinical Ph.D. programs is a bit different than exercising for 15 hours a week and having a 3.9 at an international high school like I was before the illness.
People did not doubt my ambitions- my friends and family were glad to have me around, I was a good American teenager who had his ■■■■ together very tightly. I was training in Krav Maga as a teenager, got pretty good at it. That made my onset worse- I was extremely dangerous when I became psychotic. I was extremely fit and hand-trained in how-to-kill-people, with it fresh on my mind. When I got taken to a crisis assessment center, they sent seven cops and they surrounded me.
I would have been a very fine killer. Now whether that is better than being a mentally ill psychologist is a good question. But like I said, I respect people who do what I meant to do at first; this is because they are very similar to me when you take chronic paranoid schizophrenia out of the equation.
A little late to start a lifelong career. At one time I wanted to study crafts and teach Textiles maybe on a college level. But that was way beyond my reach. Writing has always been the most important to me. Joseph Campbell says - Follow your bliss. The money will follow. That’s what I would do now if I were suddenly symptom free.
Scariest mouse there is.
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Job, wife, kids, house.
I’m sort of in the same boat… I do like my life now. It’s not perfect by a long shot… I still fight through some hard days… but don’t we all.
Because of my Sz I eventually got forced to quit drinking and drugs.
Due to trying to recover… I got put in vocational training that got me to this job. Due to liking this job… I knew what I wanted to go to school for… not just go to school… be in debt and then find out I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
I sort of think… If I hadn’t gotten Sz… I’d be a lifeguard/ beach guard / swim coach…
like almost every member of my family is or has been. I’d be drinking hard and not doing much. Most likely in college… not doing much.
so it took a long time to get here… but I think the path I’m on got me further ahead.
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Yeah it is what it is. Sz happens. Takes a while to get used to it but once you adapt your as capable as anyone else and probably happier just by contrast of what you went through. Living with this illness is an accomplishment in itself even if no one will validate it. Sz will our life sucks but most of us learn to make the best of it. It’s so different. I’m just thankful to be alive and getting back to normal, who knows what’s in the cards from here.
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I would probably still do business with my parent…if I didn’t have schizophrenia I would at least get a higher academic qualification,degree…
I would travel. As far as a career, I don’t know.
with schizoaffective I managed to get a psychology degree and elementary teaching certificate. Really wanted to be a pharmacist.
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I’d probably whistle happily more than I do now.