i was in school and I had decent grades but they started to get bad once I got into drugs and I couldn’t even go to school anymore when I became ill I hid in the basement under the couch from my mom because I hated school so much hearing everybody talking about me and listening to my thoughts.
I feel like if I never did drugs or became ill I would probably be doing pretty good in school and probably have friends and actual reasons to want to live instead of being alone and not wanting to even try to do anything like my life is already over
I’d be mr. Joe Average. I’d have a degree. I’d be married. I would have sleep walked into having kids. I’d be working in I.T.
I would never have left the country of my birth except maybe for a holiday.
There is one issue. I’m an alcoholic, and I assume that would have been the same even if I didn’t have schizophrenia. So maybe I would have been screwed whichever way. 3 years sober now though.
I am happy with myself compared to people around me even with scz
Lucky girl I guess.
Who knows what the days will bring. so don’t give up. You are aware at least. The worst part of your life is over. Just try to get healthy, achieve what you always wanted. It is never impossible.
Live in another country where it’s sunny and warm, big townhouse, car I like, play tennis, take language classes and hang out with my wife. Sometimes golf. Basically retired
Working on kids, that’s the big thing. Overall I’m in generally good spirits. I used to feel like I was very unlucky when I was young, and I’ve been unlucky with my mental health, but some things do make me feel lucky
I probably would have been a lawyer or a psychiatrist, and I probably would have been miserable at both jobs. It would have been better for me to be a fireman or a wildlife ecologist - some kind of low pressure job, but I wouldn’t have had enough insight into my own nature to understand that. I might have actually been driven to suicide as a lawyer or a psychiatrist.
I would have completed med school, and would be well established by now in my career as a doctor, not sure which field. I would probably be married as well, don’t know about kids.
I’d have gone into Dental Hygiene. I’d have a little money saved up, a dog and a boyfriend as well perhaps? More fulfilling friendships, better relationships with my nephews. Would have my drivers licence. I’d be taking better care of my mom for sure.