i was in school and I had decent grades but they started to get bad once I got into drugs and I couldn’t even go to school anymore when I became ill I hid in the basement under the couch from my mom because I hated school so much hearing everybody talking about me and listening to my thoughts.
I feel like if I never did drugs or became ill I would probably be doing pretty good in school and probably have friends and actual reasons to want to live instead of being alone and not wanting to even try to do anything like my life is already over
Working on kids, that’s the big thing. Overall I’m in generally good spirits. I used to feel like I was very unlucky when I was young, and I’ve been unlucky with my mental health, but some things do make me feel lucky
I probably would have been a lawyer or a psychiatrist, and I probably would have been miserable at both jobs. It would have been better for me to be a fireman or a wildlife ecologist - some kind of low pressure job, but I wouldn’t have had enough insight into my own nature to understand that. I might have actually been driven to suicide as a lawyer or a psychiatrist.
I’d have gone into Dental Hygiene. I’d have a little money saved up, a dog and a boyfriend as well perhaps? More fulfilling friendships, better relationships with my nephews. Would have my drivers licence. I’d be taking better care of my mom for sure.