Strangely I only had delusions about going to heaven with suicide. I thought I was Jesus and I tried killing myself to prove myself that I am immortal Jesus and that I will go straight into heaven.
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I thought I was a prophet or messiah for awhile too. I still believe in heaven but to me that makes life more worth living, as opposed to me wanting it to end. Not sure why exactly.
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For a long time I believed I had two people in me. They were earth god and bethany. Earth god was a diety controlling the earth and bethany was a spoiled child who wanted to shop all the time. The clozapine has helped me realize it wasnāt true.
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I had intense religious delusions in 2015 in the mental hospital. I thought about everything. I would pick apart words and conversations. I was extremely delusional and paranoid. I had super hearing. Thought everyone was talking about me. Thought the cia was following me back then. When I went in, my doctor gave me Adderall. ā ā ā ā ā ā me up.
I had severe delusions about my step father at the time. Feel like he gas lighted me. Made me freak out. I got severely triggered at the gaming center where I played video gamesā¦that started all thisā¦
I thought I was John the Baptist because I died like that a few times. Went back in timeā¦I got called a fake Christian and Jesus freak.
There were a ton of losers/criminals when I went there. A lot of people from the streets. I probably pissed them off. Psychosis can ruin ones lifeā¦
It was comparable or worse than college. I feel like some girl I was interested had a parent that worked for the government. Could be more than one. Maybe a freemason connection too. I dont knowā¦
My mind was spinning and broken. Cognitive decline. I couldnāt figure out the phone it was so bad.
Basically I remembered my past lives. I said some rude, insensitive things there. I think they knew stuff about me.
Something happened in college. I think the government targeted me for unknown reasonsā¦ Probably mk ultra - monarch. I was told this in a past life. Cant do ā ā ā ā about it. In my other lives, I self destructed millions of times.
Just trying to get help.
I wanted to join the military in 2015, but glad I kept my mouth shut. I was delusional/crazy.
I thought I was a false prophet even the antichrist because of simulation theoryā¦
I could go on but I wonāt.
They even sent ufos after me. See i got abducted by aliens like 10 times in my life. Not just this life but others. Its because of simulation theory. I think im John titor the real one.
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I was in the Drās office having a minor surgical procedure done and I became psychotic. I attacked the Dr. and he cut me. I began to hemorrhage and there was blood everywhere. The blood everywhere all over everything was the hallucination. Iāll never erase that image from my mind. Itās terrifying. They called for an ambulance and had me taken to the hospital. I woke up some time later recovering from my psychotic episode and my surgery with my Mom by my side wanting to know what went wrong. I was 16 years old.
I smoked weed and saw bunch of aliens in these diffent rooms then there was this one alien that was made out of water and I could feel it and the whole time and it was the demiurges army attacking the earth trying to make it into false mater then I saw the aliens that looked more real than reality being surrounded and tortured by this fuzzy stuff that looked like the stuff u see on tv when itās a blank channel and the whole time I was getting this extreme feeling of this weird fear like I wasnāt supposed to see this and the whole world was ending and then another time I smoked weed I saw a ship filled with aliens that where lizard meat puppets eating human flesh and It was big with all these rooms and I could sence all the pain and felt my body being squeezed with all these feelings of fear in my body that wasnāt realy fear but was super intense was both scary as hell I could feel everthing in this weird way
Yea weed causes or worsen SZ. I get in trouble with the police by breaking the law when smoking weed. I become violent with weapons like knives and may kill ppl or myself. I stopped last year. I switched to vaping nicotine. Its much healthier.
I also stopped talking with friends using weed. I deleted and blocked them.
I could see my voiceās eyes in people. he was in them and it freaked me out.
I did not want to look into his eyes
it might not sound scary but I used to believe I was a laser on a recording on a CD in a computer living out a time loop for hundreds of times before ā¦this meant I didnāt believe I had an actual body and it scared the hell out of me on top of everything else scary I believedā¦
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I saw extremely gorgeous women turn into extremely grotesque, scary monsters.
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A flying witch biting my funt
I havenāt really had visuals, but my tactiles have been quite lifelike.
I once hallucinated that blood was running down my head, and no matter how many time I felt it with my hand and was ensured it wasnāt real, I still had the feeling.
I also had the feeling once of being penetrated, sexually. It lasted for several minutes and made me quite uncomfortable, as penetration is not something I desire.
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I had a vivid hallucination that satan walked into my kitchen.
I was so afraid I peed on the floor.
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Whatās a funt? 142424
@Leaf that sounds awful! I am sorry that happened to you.
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I was being chased by a voodoo priest/spirit with a machete one night.
Robyn B working for the care team ! out on stitch up jobs or ti television comes close!
I tot I saw a puddy catā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦
nice tag! line!
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