Ok well the only voices I hear are only when I’m laying down to go to bed. They’ll be like heard from inside my head to not outside my head. Some things they say are so random, and some things are only 1 or 2 word sentences that don’t make sense, or just stuff that don’t make sense at all, and some can get real dark too.
Anybody know what I’m talking about. Like most stuff doesn’t make sense, but sometimes I think I’m talking to my dead dad, but I may be wrong. Although one time I did have a conversation with a voice where he said stuff just like my dad would say, which made me thought I was talking to him.
One thing the other night kind of got my anxiety going. Well let me tell you this short story first so you can understand. I once got a gun from our house and threatened to kill myself with it, but my dad was there, and I don’t remember if I pointed the gun at him or not, Actually I think I did, but allot of my breakdowns have something to do with if I killed my Dad or not and I’m in Hell for killing him, because I’m pretty sure I pulled it on him when I was younger, having a breakdown.
But I was saying my prayers the other night and usually say “dad just want to say love you, miss you, continue to watch over us, protect us and guide us” , but when I got to " dad just want to say" a voice in my head said " say sorry for pointing the gun at me."
I really didn’t like that. First off cause I had a family member come here and say my Grandma was scared to live with me when I was younger, and secondly not remembering if I pulled the gun on my dad or not
Like I said though most of the voices are random and don’t make sense though, but they sometimes get dark as that. LIke some demon voice in my head speaking stuff.
Dont be alarmed by the negative ones saying spooky stuff. The voices/they/it what ever you want to call the hallucinations… they are not your dads voice or spirit. Never do anything “they” tell you to do that sounds careless or dangerous. Many people hallucinate taunting voices. Are you already seeing a doctor? on medicine? You may need to call your doctor or find one if you dont have one. It is probably best you try not to talk back to them either aloud or mentaly. Doing that seemed to encourage “them” talking (for me anyway). Instead, try music or falling asleep with the tv volume on low. some people have quieter voices/symptoms and use a loud fan. If you have never had this happen before, then know that hallucinations may say some very bad stuff or even tell you to do bad things. Do not do what they tell you unless you meant to do that thing anyway(sometimes hallucinations comment on what your doing). The negative things hallucinations say are nothing but the same non-sense they have been saying all along. that is all.
The problem I’m having is I’m already seeing a doctor, and on Medicine for this. The Invega Shot, but it doesn’t stop the voices at night in my head when I go to bed.
Do I talk back to them. Yes I do sometimes, but do they answer me back mostly? No , not really.
This one convo I actually wrote down from a year or more ago. Here’s what I said and the voice said.
Me: Sing allot when I sleep
Voice: Yeah, I can see that
Me: Blamed God for what happened and even questioned him
Voice: Don’t play the victim
Me: Talking about my wife about something
Voice: Yeah she’s kinda good looking
Me: I want to turnover, but I’m afraid you’ll stop talking
Voice: Go for it
And then the voice just said stuff like
Voice: I am sorry ( Dad and I got into drugs together bad and made bad choices so that’s what I took it as)
Voice: Rough nights arent the best nights
Me: Dont know why your talking to me tonight , you hear me in group or writing in Journal Today ( cause I was in group that day talking about my dad exactly 15 hours ago from that time)
Voice: 15 hours ( was 4:39 am and 15 hours before I was in group at 1:39-1:40 pm
Voice: Mad as hell with the third generation ( I took this as he was mad he didn’t get to see the third generation of Call’s which my brother had a kid his grandson)
That’s pretty much all I got. Anybody have any insight on this at all. I wrote it down because I was so excited I thought I talked to my Dad, which I really think that was. Even though I have voices at night that voice was him telling me what was on his mind
The voices in many people like to mimic, and they are very good at it. That means they can sound exactly like whatever relative or celebrity they want, and it’s very convincing. Just keep that in mind.
But why would it tell me all that stuff, Stuff that my dad would say? Just to make me think it’s my dad? But why would it do that?
This voice was deep like my dad’s , did it sound exactly the same, maybe not, but wasn’t far away from it.
You think they would want me to think that so I would think I’m talking to my dad, so they could turn it around one day and make me think he’s saying negative stuff to me? which happened a couple nights ago.
I don’t know I took it as it being my dad, but I’m not a professional on scizoaffective voices, but I do know people who pass to the other side can talk to you if there allowed or if they can or something like that. I just believe our energy doesn’t leave this world until we cross over to a greater place.
I don’t know if I’m wrong or not, but hopefully not cause I really was excited about that happening and logged it down in fact cause it was so real
I am very sorry you lost your dad, but , i hate to say it, but the voices are not him or his soul. i am sorry. The voices are really just misfiring chemical and electric charges in our brains. I am glad you did have at least some tiny bit of comfort from it though. you may want to see your doctor and see what can be done to deminish the voices more. Some times voices get worse if a person is under stress. So, decreasing stress may help. Staying positive and as happy as possible might keep voices from saying awful things. I agree with other poster. Back when i had mine they would certainly mimic voices of real people, sound effects, and music. I dont know if you have had it happen to you yet, but voices will even try to trick us ever so often. so if someone who is in the room with you says something odd, watch his mouth and see if the lip movement matches the words or ask him to repeat like you didnt hear them. Voices have tried to trick many into thinking someone said something which they did not.
All of the non-sense things you stated before “i want to turn over, but …go for it” is just more of the same. It is a chemical and/or electrical misfire. You wanted something, and a common positive reply is “go for it”.
It is ok to believe in God and souls and such. It would be great to be able to talk to our family members. but I would not want to mislead you. No one wants to be lied to.
You know after I think about it, It may jsut of been a voice that was ■■■■■■■ with me to make me trust it. The thing is oI’m on my INvega shot and still hear voices at night when I go to laydown. Nothing will stop it really and it get’s old. I do trust some of the voices, but don’t know what to think.
Hell I’m so new into these voices I don’t know there names or who they are or what they want from me.
my point is: never trust any of the voices. i say this because the voices are not a person. There is no one there to trust which is why “they” are rightly called hallucinations. It does not matter if the hallucination is to our liking or not. It is still a hallucination. The simple definition of a hallucination is - a deception, a false noise or vision only heard or seen by the one hallucinating. The more technichal, but still non-medical terminology definition would be - a false noise or visional experience of a person having abnormal chemical and/or electrical misfiring between brain cells. When trying to understand our condition, we both (you and me) must always remind ourselves there is no person behind those voices. There is no one there to trust or not trust, there is only abnormal exchanges of chemicals and/or neuron firings. In the same way that pain is the symptom of a stubbing a toe, which only that person can feel, - hallucinations is a symptom of abnormal chemical and/or electric firing of brain cells, which only we can experience. We would not asign personhood to the experience of the pain of the stubbed toe. The pain is not a person. We also do not give an identity to the groups of misfunctioning brain cells.
This condition is very difficult for new people to understand, but i hope, maybe, this bit of patient education will help? There are always a lot of questions to start with and this site is good for that.