for me getting through it all and to think how much i suffered in the pits of despair knowing how bad i felt for me to say now how good i feel with no more despair or bad feelings, i now wear a badge of honor for defeating it by feeling well every day… 
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Great,it’s nice to hear you feel well everyday…it’s lunar Chinese New Year,I felt a stress during the new year and I feel not very well during the new year,now the new year days is almost over(there are one more week to pass),i hope I get back to my normal days as I like daily routine better
thanks all problems have gone ive found a type of inner peace, where i feel totally safe in my skin…im like the captain of a ship…as in the ship being my mind and the captain being me in control of it… i can quicky choose what mood i perfare and aim for it, 9 times out of 10 it works
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Yeah that is the only positive about Sz is if you can beat it. You learn emended amounts of self control and feeling good becomes automatic. The contrast to the hell of psychosis makes almost anything else, aside from physical pain, completely tolerable.
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I only get the bad type , psychosis for me means I am in so much discomfort , I get tactile, somatic and olfactory hallucinations , essentially there is no possibility of any functionality. Other people have other symptoms , mine has a very much organic feel , although my ct scan was within the normal range. I never did the electrical check of my brain , the pdoc didn’t seem to think it would add anything. Maybe it would mean some anti epeleptics but just more meds, of a different kind. I may look to doing these tests in the coming years
Reminds me of one my tdocs after just coming out from a 3 months involuntary. “Your lucky to experience psychosis not many get that experience…”
Me in shock thinking What the…?
Nothing really positive comes out of it for me. Oh ok maybe a little of understanding myself better but very little very tiny bit better.
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It is unfortunate but it happens to some of us. Gotta make the best of it. My life would certainly be different if I never had psychosis. In a lot of ways I think I’m ahead of where I would be. In some other ways I’m definitely behind.
No drugs but no work. The resversal of that seems ridiculously inappropriate but it is probably where I’d be. Stressed out worn out and self medicating. I think psychosis for me was inevitable. Coming out on the other side though I feel strong and accomplished. I practically beat sz. It’s only a matter of time now before that official and I have to return to a normal life of working for a living. Until I’m totally symptom free for 6 to 12 months I’ll still feel like I have this illness. Everyday is getting better, and I’m still learning new ways of thinking and ways to keep myself from falling back into psychosis.
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that i haven’t killed anyone yet.
take care 
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It clears the head out for starting over.
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I think that experiencing psychosis gave me invaluable insight as a psychology student and it also curbed my appetite for destruction that I used to have. I used to seriously want to become a mercenary or work for the CIA after serving as an officer in SEALs. I was well on my way to do so, believe me. Now that I have been to hell and had enough trauma, I no longer want to destroy. I used to want to kill for a living, now I want to heal. Not bad.
I was happy before I became schizophrenic, though. The military would have been the right place for me, I rather hated everyday life and sought thrills and challenges as a kid and teen. I was really into Krav Maga (Israeli hand to hand combat) and getting belts in it at a fast rate before I lost my marbles, and I was a good student at an international high school, at the time it was the second most diverse high school in the U.S., I remember the dean bragging about that to some parents touring the place while I was walking down the hall. I liked learning, but I saw it as just a phase and that I would be done with it for good after four more years unless I decided to go to law school after serving in the military.
Now I am planning on being in school for at least six more years and I do not want to kill people for a living.
I guess I found empathy somewhere in the depths of psychosis. Other people experience my pain, and I want to help them.
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Hmmm. That’s a tough one.
I know! It really helped me enjoy “One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest” . I saw it before I got sick and when I saw it AFTER I got sick I could really relate.
Did you know that Danny Devito and Christoper Lloyd both played patients in that movie?
And that some of the rest of those patients in the movie were actually patients in real life?
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