I think my condition might improve more. Also I’ve got a move coming up that will have me around people who care and are supportive. I have money saved, my mom has money now, and there’s a lot of recovery left to go. Gotta get a car and drive again, get used to it, get a part time job. Gotta get a good psychiatrist and see what county services are offered in California.
Mostly it’s the hope that I’ll be high functioning one day. The elements are all there, I just have a hard time dealing with the frequency of the hallucinations some days.
I’m a glass half full kinda guy. I love life. I love interacting with people and I love just being.
I am a positive person and always have been even in my darkest days. When psychotic my delusions turned to make it look like they were spending millions on me to provide me with advice…the television was talking to me. I had some issues and I thought I would have to move to America to avoid the shame and stigma.
I eventually got better and realized what was what. Curiously. I did move to America and reinvent myself a couple of years later…I think if you stick too it positive vibes will get your further!
I don’t like to quit. I’m not saying I’ve never been suicidal, and hope to never go back there gain. I guess I’m just too damned stubborn and have seen so much it would be a waste to not get out of bed daily.
My youngest son is my reason for living. He is all my hope and dreams. People my not understand my love but he is the only one in my life that encourage me to that life is good
Kids are always a reason to keep going. Mine is elaving home for University, but I know she will still need me. I can’t afford to lose it again while shes studying.
I’m going to restate that. What keeps me going are my God and my many interests: prayer, piano practice, yoga, meditation, reading, social media, my good friend, my family, my cat, my volunteer job, cooking, art, cultural events, movies and music.
