I guess my symptoms pretty much fall on a bell curve from extremely unpleasant to extremely pleasant.
I think recovery means you shift the bulk of the overall curve towards more satisfying and healthy functions. It doesn’t mean you won’t ever have delusions or hallucinations or bad days again, but they will be quite a bit more rare.
I don’t know that much about statistics, but I always thought bell curves were kinda cool. Bell curves turn up where you would least expect them: Here is a graph I played around with when I was curious if the length of the songs in my mp3 music collection fell on a bell curve:
I don’t understand statistics, but I wasn’t expecting a fairly smooth curve… If you plot just about any natural phenomena (height, temperature, IQs, our symptoms) they should fall on a bell curve if there are multiple factors influencing the output.
I guess this graph shows I am not into long classical pieces
My recovery is based on trying to nudge my bellcurve to the right by eating a better diet, taking meds, managing stress, socializing more. taking in higher quality information, avoiding drugs and alcohol…etc.etc… Each good thing you do for yourself nudges the curve to the right.
If often have to remind myself that life is one big pachinko machine. We just have to find ways to tilt it in our favor.
I think things that are quantifiable and measurable are easier to change. I never could lose weight until I started measuring my calories and other nutrients using a food diary app. My finances are at a bit of a standstill right now but the fact I can track it myself helps me control my spending better than if I was totally unaware.
I haven’t come up with a good way to quantify and track my functioning and recovery myself yet… Maybe if I count the number of tasks I do on my done list each day might be somewhat of an objective measure. I did ok on an online IQ test but that doesn’t really measure how I function in daily life. I think measures of my overall heatlh like blood pressure, cholesterol, triglycerides are also some dependent variables that are all part of an objective measurable definition of recovery… I know I get a lot more psych symptoms when I am physically ill. So yeah recovery has to be holistic… not sure how to really quantify my own happiness but being healthy and wealthy would be nice. I am getting well enough that I can treat my illness somewhat like an experiment.
Schizophrenia isn’t the only problem I have-- I have high bp, i am overweight, i have osteoarthritis… a couple months ago I used Google Drive to draw up a chart of how I think most things with my health interact (I may add sex and low libido to the list too
Sickness is very complicated because illnesses effect each other… but with this chart I can sort of see how vicious and virtual cycles operate in my own life. Maybe someday I’ll be able to write my own recovery equation index like the stock markets:
recovery = -3BP + 10Checking account balance - 2body weight - 500number of hospitalizations in one year + 10*number of facebook friends