Life is simpler when you don’t believe this stuff. I believe some of it. The creation/origin story, ie matrix, makes me believe some of this is possible. It sucks. Modern meds help. Entertaining/believing in this stuff just makes it worse.
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I’ve been trapped in the matrix before. Probably millions or billions of times. I’ve been to other versions, or different timelines/time loops. I hate it. I’ve seen demons but they looked like holograms. It could have been a hallucination but I dont really know.
I’ve seen biological aliens in my past lives. Scary stuff. I only talk about it because I’m stressed.
It should be impossible to remember this stuff. Only a sz would remember. It is a curse.
So far, they dont interact or interfere with us. They leave us alone. Meds seem to counter their abilities.
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we have to be resilient, as resilient as we can be, i am trying to strenthen my resilience through faith but it is hard, i still rely on my meds which are a blessing alone,
its going to be a miracle if i can get off of meds but if i do or dont i will not blame, it is not up to me, i was chosen to be tested but for what reason idk know, the devil wants his lot, his pound of flesh, and i will not so easily give in.
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I believe my demons are real
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I told my doctor I will wait till I die to find out who’s right
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My aliens feel real. They’re not.
Are you keeping a recovery journal? Every time you think they’re going to get you, write it down. And then a couple days later when it doesn’t come to pass, right that down too. A couple of years of this and you’ll learn that the voices and delusions are all hat and no cattle (as we say where I live). They’re not real. Their threats are empty. And you’ve worried for nothing. This is where a journal is essential.
Bonus thought: You know the worst part about worrying? It means you suffer twice. Don’t.
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i do keep a journal, but it spirals out of control easily , ends up more like a sci-fi novel than a recovery tool. i do worry too much but knowing it’s not real doesn’t make it feel less real.
i don’t know how to just ignore it, it’s intense sometimes
Same here, its hard to accept its just a sickness…
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Keep it point form then, no more than one sentence per entry. Keeps you from monologuing about the illness.
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If the demons were real, wouldn’t we all see them?
Me, I’ve never seen a demon, or an alien or a ghost… or any hallucination.
Not saying it’s false, but if they were real, everyone would see them?