What do y’all do about homicidal ideations? I get these thoughts of rage within me that I can’t help. I try to hold all of it in and I fear one day I’ll lose it. Like something will set me off and I’ll do it. Not to my children, husband or other family members, but my in laws brothers in laws, sister in law. Who I hate with a passion. I’ve always thought of myself as amoral, and have had no restraint to hurt others. Especially if these people have ever crossed me. I know writing this and looking for help about said actions has put me under FBI watch, they do read what you search. Anyway, how can I stop feeling this way? Note, I’ve been playing with these thoughts since I was a child. I don’t want to go to the hospital, but I may have to. I’ve read that everyone at some point have had murderous thoughts and it’s even been encouraged to allow thoughts to play out to get them off your mind. At least that’s what I’ve read. I really need advice.
I keep thinking of what I would have to lose and the consequences. I think of the snowball effect. The sh@# trouble I’d be doing to my family.
IMO, it’s all about chronic brain inflammation. I’ve been drinking 9.5 pH alkaline water for the past month and a half, and my chronic headache has reduced substantially, as well as my violent intrusive thoughts.
My brain is bordering on comfortable now, and my thoughts are much kinder.
If you are feeling like you are going to hurt someone, then please go to the hospital.
It’s pretty common to have thoughts of hurting others, and urges as well, but if you think you are even close to acting out on these urges then you need to go to the hospital for your children’s sake.
These thoughts and urges dont make you a bad person, it’s our actions that define us, not our emotions.
I think therapy is the your best bet to be honest. In the mean time, do you have any outlets for releasing these type of thoughts? Like healthy outlets like videogames, listening to heavy metal, journaling, maybe some type of martial art or sport? These might help or at least take the edge off. I’m not trying to encourage these thoughts but you it sounds like you need a healthy way to deal with them.
So I just did a workout playing with my golden retriever and to be honest crying and releasing that pent up, negative energy seemed to melt off. As I played with her, I realized these people haven’t done anything to me, I don’t want to hurt anyone. I love my doggo, I pet her, hugged her, she listened to me rant on and on and yet all she did was love on me and it’s like I felt life be so fragile and I have no right to take it away from anybody. At least my frontal lobe is working.
I knew Clozapine could help with suicidal ideation, but had no clue it helped with homicidal ideation. I was curious though and looked it up and sure enough there is evidence showing it lessons aggression.
Thats so good. I think physical and fun activities help with releasing negative energy. For this reason, I feel like joining a ball hockey team or taking up bike riding or something.
Oh and dogs are the best! I’m glad your pupper gave you the space you needed to let it out of your system.
