For years I have had a voice call out my name. Of course there is no one ever there, but it sounds so real. The voice is always the same and it’s always with some urgency; and loud. I never hear any other words; just my name. It happens several times a day.
Since I was just diagnosed, I have not had much time to investigate hallucinations. I am wondering if other people experience similar symptoms or if they happen more frequently and are more detailed. Also, I’m on Risperdal (and some other medications). Do medications make voices go away? I’m not sure what to expect.
My voices interfere with my thought processes. Its like all i can think about are the voices. Some are nice some arent. sometimes they are there all day and other times they come and go. Sometimes when it is really bad i pray and that can make things better. In Australia there is a thing called hearing voices network where people talk about their experiences in hearing voices and how they deal with it. I havent been to a meeting as i am to far away, but would be interesting to expand my current survival strategy and hear from others. When I went on respiredal they said about 30% get better, 30% makes a difference and the rest need to try different meds.
Repeat everything I think
Tell me basically how much of a piece of poo I am
Smoke some crack
Smoke some meth
Tell me i’m never going to get there
I’ll never see a wet pussy ever again, and we’ll make sure of it
sometimes they’re mean comments about myself, or they try to humiliate me… i thought my neighbors knew my secrets… i thought the voices belonged to my neighbors.
Mine are constant in times of high stress. When I am at lower stress periods of my life they are not constant. Mine are very mean, cursory and make all kinds of suggestions on how to end my life. When my depression is heavy I start listening to them instead of ignoring them.
With Flupentixol voices were gone but I became a robot. I changed to Abilify and voices came back but I am no robot anymore. I can feel. Even though I seldom feel any joy or happiness. I have anhedonia. But I can feel my soul. I couldn’t as a robot.