Ok. I went to my pdoc 2 weeks back. He said i am bipolar and i need to be on meds to be stable. Asked me to come back after 2 weeks with my wife. Now after 2 weeks i did not comply to meds and also not going to take my wife. Its going to piss him off i think. But i want to meet him for i want to be consistent in life. So what do i tell, i am going through mild depression about my past and do not want to let down my fellow work members and family. For they helped me a lot. I did not have voices so strong or i am so delusinonal. But i fear about my wife and mom for i am alone and do not do many work at home and they do not have the will to understand whats inside me. Rather the expectations are high, thinking i am normal and i am just a lazy ass faking. I am active only when i am on this forum and while eating and sleeping. Its very condescending the way they talk to me which pisses me off to the core because i am lazy on out. But only i know about my illness. Basically i dont like my mom and wife for way they talk to me.
Maybe it’d be easiest just to show your pdoc this post. If he becomes angry with you for something that happens in most sz people then maybe he isn’t the right pdoc for you?
Yeah i will tell him most of the things i can. Yes basicallly this topic is to make me remind of the things i need to comunicate. But i feel the pdoc is understanding than the previous one with whom i had no wavelength. Now the wavelength is missing with my mom and wife. which should not be. I am sure unless i take them there is no solution. But they dont want to come. I dont like them=dont like life. Living with pain than peace.
If you’re not going to follow any of the doctor’s advice then why bother seeing a doctor…it’s a waste of money at that point. That’s like going to gym and spending the whole time sitting on a bench instead of actually working out but then saying you want to keep paying for your membership and going for consistency. 
If you don’t listen and make effort to change your situation nothing will change
Yeah exactly what i thought now. i am not going to visit pdoc as it does not make sense. maybe i will work with my family instead.
You should keep seeing your doctor, he’s the professional! A good pdoc will incorporate your family into treatment naturally like yours is trying to do.
I’m having trouble with it too, my therapist wants my parents to come to some sessions and I was like aghhhgh. But it’s important for building a strong support network and also so they can see how you’re doing from an outside perspective from someone who’s around you a lot.
I know he is a good pdoc. But i am not able to trust my family visiting pdoc and being positive about me. Not sure if they will follow pdocs advice as they have their words on someone else. My family’s support system is growing everyday and i am not able to keep up with it. So no point talking anything about them to pdoc unless they are willing to understand. They see me as normal and i will act like that as much as i can else to see what next.
Yeah I get it. I’m sure your pdoc will understand this too if you explain it. Not everyone has the luxury of having really understanding and supportive/positive family that want to be a part of the process.
I feel more comfortable talking about this here. I totally feel dishonest for not taking meds and not able to take my wife to him. As he seemed very understanding and i am not.
I just feel comfortable alone more and more. Eventually it will make perfect sense for everyone that i am not in this world anymore. Maybe if that happens naturally i am happy. But hope someone does not induce it.
Actually i became a 2 face. There is much worse word for me from others about me. It automatically makes me want to end everything.
my mom treats me the same way as your mom and your wife. she says, “Your are talking, walking, so you must be able to work”. her brother had sz and was able to have a wife and be a teacher so she thinks sz is just a light thing. meanwhile i am struggling with severe cognitive and negative and positive, basically everything. they look in from the outside and assume you are all ok because you have two arms, two legs and a head. “Okay, its all there, check! now go be superman for me”, that’s the way i think they treat you and me.
If you’re sick and medicine non-compliant maybe there’s nothing to say to your pdoc, whose job it is to prescribe you medication. Maybe you should just walk into his office, take a crap on his desk, and say “peace! I’m out!”
Yeah exactly. They just dont get it all. It goes into a one sided argument if we try to explain. Plain waste of time all the time. Life seems with no purpose. I am getting exhausted and others enjoy their intellect around me for being stupid for the confusing thoughts. It sucks the way they label for small mistakes and do not bother about the big picture.
I am not pdoc compliant now. So it does not matter to go to his office. As i dont feel obliged since the family is like “if u want to go you go if you do not you dont its all u made up and u have to take care” thats another burden for me.