Real people. Real problem.
This is where I am heading to.
War of fantasy.
Hallucination. Delusion. Disorganized Thinking.
War in reality.
Discrimination. Office Politics.
…just to name a few.
It feels great to become better, until the reality strikes.
Good. I will remember what you are saying.
This is also what I do. I look for the source of problems and solutions. We share a common battle. This is how I would define my personal struggle:
Internal Struggle: I’m struggling with confidence and motivation.
External Struggle: Feeling incompetent, socially slandered, and isolated.
You wrote out your internal struggles of hallucinations and fantasies and external struggles being in the environment of the workplace and outside influences like politics and discrimination.
Both of our internal and external struggles have to do with being perceived as different, and somewhat aided by our mental health struggles.
How do we overcome these roadblocks of trust and mistrust, discrimination, and performance? I really want to do well, but there’s so much that causes me to buckle under the pressure.
Okay, this is very useful for me. I have bookmarked it.
Not just that.
Even after we got well, our physical health is still deteriorating?!
I’m a disabled veteran, I was deployed to OEF (rotation 3) which was in 2003 (before Iraq was invaded).
I just feel betrayed sometimes, I never thought that I’d be in this predicament.
And I have a hard time trusting anyone.
WHat do you say (to a doctor younger than you), when you talk about your combat experience and you’re branded as delusional??
I am not just a helpless schizo that had a fantasy of doing these things.
It angered me that the VA doesn’t care about my involvement with the war that much-but they’re trying to help.
Supposedly I’m going to see a therapist for interviews of experiences, my diagnosis is so crooked and I’m so screwed up in the head. I just hope war in general can stop.
Sorry, the title is misleading. I should have rename it as ‘external struggle’.
I am not talking about real war here. I do understand a little bit about your experience.
I think about this often. How, I am fighting off so many troubles from so many directions. It’s like I have two lives. The one dictated by voices and delusions and the one where I have to deal with, you know, “life” stuff. It’s increasingly difficult for me to focus on getting better when I constantly have schoolwork and work and other obligations. I feel overwhelmed. Especially dealng with real people, and not just voices.
I’m tempted to say they are in denial mode in order to start a mass brainwashing of the public, starting with the vets… IT DIDN’T HAPPEN…it was only a response to 9/11, it wasn’t all that bad, we didn’t really do anything, we are not really still there… and anyone who was there and knows otherwise, well, agree and deny combat experiences or be branded delusional
Well that’s not cool at all.
Did you see where I posted in alternative treatments how the VA in some places is using that virtual reality to bring healing regarding combat experiences, even to the point of bringing up combat scenarios in VR?
Seems they have all types of doctors in the VA…but for someone to tell you they don’t believe yours is just plain wrong…
post 19 here
What angers and upsets me is that in the U.S. and other places, PTSD is seen as treatable where-as schizophrenia is untreatable without medication, making medication the primary method of treatment. I always knew this was wrong, which is why I fought to make my own choices and I failed, because I was forced to take anti-psychotics since I was sixteen years old. I believed I was laced with a drug and assaulted at boarding school, and my psychiatrist told me I was a paranoid schizophrenic. I’m pretty sure it happened, though. I just have no memory of what happened, and a significant block of time between when I fell asleep and woke up, unaware of what had changed internally, instead I expressed it externally by lashing out and refusing to eat in the cafeteria, so they sent me home.
PTSD is treatable and with techniques you can achieve full recovery. So if, Neveragain, your psychosis stems from PTSD you have a reason to be upset, and I think that’s what you mean. My therapist friend told me that PTSD used to be schizophrenia, and the word PTSD actually evolved out of the Vietnam War. But since a good portion of Vietnam Vets were dissenting and opposed the war, there was no real effort to help them recover.
There’s a similar vein in the 21st century—we are being pushed to deny our experiences. To our friends we might be the best thing that happened to them, to isolated individuals in high positions, we are insects to be squashed. We take up time, space, and money. We are given a label that is a lie, because it inserts the propaganda that there is no recovery from psychosis, while we become self-destructive and are not cured–due to the underlying conditions of trauma.
When I was in the hospital I imagined that I was in a simulated torture environment. There were no cameras in the rooms, unless you peered over the desk and looked. There were no torture devices, unless you think being forcibly administered electroshock, restraints, and chemical lobotomies don’t constitute as torture, not to mention that you have no freedom of speech, you are ignored and belittled, creativity is watered down to coloring books. Might as well be playing with our own ■■■■.
The VA should acknowledge your involvement in the war, after all that’s what created your disease, all of our disease are stemming from a Militarized Industrial Culture that denies mystical experiences, waters down judgement, and has a cynically impaired view of how things should be. That’s our culture as of now, but it’s changing dramatically because of me and you.
I wasn’t a helpless schizo either. I was brilliant. I was anti-war, took college courses when I was fourteen, my highest scores on the SAT were in my political science essays. I was selected by my teachers, and received a letter from the Johns Hopkins Talented Youth Search. I finished the course, it was only 3 weeks and I didn’t get to do it again, because I was sent to a boarding school my mom thought would expand my horizons. It wasn’t the worst decision, but it was too alienating.
I got average scores on the SAT. Like I’m not super smart in math or anything, I just have always had a mindful awareness about education. I was interviewed by a Harvard Alumni and my dad tried to trick me and yelled at me not to do it because he couldn’t afford an Ivy League school. So you see? Culture has ■■■■■■ me too!
I think a lot of SZ is based on PTSD…
The Mil doesn’t exactly deny mystical experiences and entire programs have been based on them, from Mk Ultra to Stargate, and a bunch of other ones inbetween.
Electronic telepathy, all kinds of techno influenced practices, remote viewing, psychic practice…
It’s more the medical complex, specifically the psychiatric and pharmaceutical complexes that deny the mystical
REMOTE NEURAL MONITORING.
This also gets into the realm of the mystical even though technology is involved.
Electrical currents and various waves are involved with paranormal experiences, have been measured when there is poltergeist activity, ghosts, etc…yet is a mystical experience.
Humans learning how to tap into the electrical currents of the brain is probably the same thing spirits have done since the beginning of time…
almost takes the mystical out of mystical though…
That’s where/./////////
SHE BLINDED ME WITH SCIENCE
Nobody ever said “reality” is perfect. There are a lot of problems in real life too - but at least you have a chance of living a better life.
If you’re in the war of fantasy you’re just replacing the real problems with unreal problems - and you have no chance of improving your life.