I’ve hit a rough patch. There is this guy at school who constantly gets high and I let myself go and bought 5$ worth of weed. I smoked it all by myself and felt the usual anxiety. As I was laying in my bed I told myself why use something that makes you so distressed and promised myself to be more careful. I had been clean for 2 years.
I missed one day of school Thursday, so far I’ve been absent only 2 days in the 7 months I’ve been there. I worry constantly. My results are okay so far, the biggest problem I have is with group projects, it seems I got paired with the class’ misfits and this guy who sold me that small piece always wants to dictate how we should do things without considering other people’s opinions. I have nothing against him personally, he is even nice to me, but he is loud and a bit tyrannical and I feel we won’t achieve much with our game project.
I will admit feeling like I want to quit College recently, we’re 2 weeks away from spring break so I think I’ll be okay. It is just so hard to have to start from the bottom. It makes me sad that some people like most of us have nothing to their name while other bask in riches. Did you know that if you have 1 Million in a savings account you earn 5000$ a month just from interests. That’s 5 times my income just for having a load of cash sit there in the bank.
I’ve started saving and I live more frugally except for comfort food.
Well, that’s all for now, wanted to know how to hold on and not give up, despite difficult relations with some students and pushing myself really hard to the point of exhaustion and taking other students’ workload and wanting to do real good for them and myself.