hi, this is a video of me talking to someone about my current state of mind…
i have other vids if anyone is interested in seeing me in not so good states of mind…
hi, this is a video of me talking to someone about my current state of mind…
i have other vids if anyone is interested in seeing me in not so good states of mind…
hi, another vid of me under extreme delusion - believing my neighbours are out to get me…
although i am sure there nice people and have absolutely nothing to do with my didsease but not at the time of this video…
ps… i know i sound like a dick but this is how i get when i am delusional…
pps… i have done so many things i am terribly guilty and remorseful about,
including not controlling my temper and yelling out disgusting things in the direction of where i think the voices are coming from… i dont know how i can live with myself to be honest…
any comments are welcome…
hi, last vid i will upload here- very ashamed of this one…
me going off at neighbours that dont deserve it…
Glad you are getting this off your chest. Shows a lot of insight. Out of curiousity, why do you videotape yourself when youre psychotic? Do the voices tell you to do it? I never thought of videotaping myself when I was psychotic. Although the police have a lovely video of me talking to myself and generally acting like a lunatic in the jail cell. Course I thought the CIA was watching me.
hi, i videotape myself mainly for future insight of what i am like psychotic so as to remind myself to stay on meds, and also to guilt trip myself into remaining calm as things get rather intense…
Were these unmedicated times?
I think that’s very smart. I wish I had videos of my unmedicated struggles to remind me to stay on meds.
hi,
no i am currently medicated, these are recent delusions and ongoing
even now i am struggling to hold on to sanity…
hi,
thanks for the kind comment,
hopefully they do remind me to keep up the meds also…
Sounds like the meds aren’t quite effective yet, maybe the vids will be useful in keeping your doc informed. Kind of like a recovery journal.
hi,
yeah not much effectivity in meds really,
think i am more than delusional,
like, people are really taking advantage of the fact that i have schizophrenia!
anyone else ever have this ?
I have too many video tapes of my trying to prove my truths, that others were being dicks to me, but if you think I could watch them now…no way.
That was my (ex) husbands idea- he bought me numerous video cameras, digital cameras, mirrors (to peek around corners, see outside and into other rooms with two mirrors-he taught me how)- all because he wanted to see some portrait perfect proof that what I was saying was true…of course nothing pleased him, but he did manage to (secretly) share all my Proof to anyone he thought would help him prove I was the problem-not him doing what I was accusing him of doing.
Yeah I have had some dickery. Pretty much just dickery, not conspiracy, some people are merely a-holes. But, most aren’t.
hi,
just thought id say i am currently well on the mend…