Brought up the intense anger issues I was having to my therapist. She suggested the next med combo should be Effexor and Geodon. I don’t really know much of anything about Effexor but Geodon was my next choice for AP.
At the same time…I haven’t had irritability in the past few days. The other day when I brought it up to my roommate she asked if it could be PMS related and it happened that I was about to get my period. I have never experienced any change in mood around my period before. But now as my period is ending I’m noticing my irritability is significantly reducing?
So if that’s the case, I’m doing so well currently that I have very weak interest in going back on medication. At the same time, I know that I have mental illness that’s not going anywhere, and I am aware of the pattern where I start feeling better and reject all help and then crash badly. I know that my stability is often fragile. But can’t I enjoy it while it lasts and not have it impeded by nasty side effects?