As I sit here in isolation in Salt Lake City at my aunt’s house (relegated to babysitting, by vacationing guardian), I contemplate things… The answer to all of my problems is to become an immortal predator of human blood. Humans eat animals. Vampire is higher up, id est: humans are okay to feed upon. But no, one mustn’t be so antisocial. But if one is essentially different from humans… what is really wrong with it? No, I don’t believe I am a vampire at this point and no I haven’t nor will I be drinking human blood. The point I am trying to make is: if I am immortal, what need have I of shelter, food, air, in a word: props? So, I could live merrily in the woods without needing the support of concern of… humans. I would like that. If I am immortal and I inspire terror in the hearts and minds of most people, then I guess there will be no more attempts made at controlling my life. Yes, I would like that. I’m seriously contemplating taking my January pay and frolicking away into the chasm of non-human. Why not? Lest I do something irreversibly terrible, someone please let me know what better options are here, now, for me.
Oh yeah, I forgot I have Ativan.
I thought I was a werewolf for 12 years of my life. It was one of the most in depth delusions I ever had. I muse now that I had it due to feelings of helplessness and constant fear, being a monster made me feel strong and powerful.
You don’t have to be a vampire to want to get away from the hustle bustle. I wanna live in a cabin in the woods as well and escape all those human responsibilities. Nothing wrong with that.
you sound really delusional. do you have a psychiatrist and do you take medications for your mental health?
Yes, I have a doctor and yes I take my meds. Are you thinking I may need an adjustment? Well, I get to have a counselor soon. Maybe that will help.
your thoughts seem very disturbing to me. Maybe you are just a “tougher soul” than me. I can’t stomach talk like that in my own mind. I would tell your pdoc what you are telling the forum and see what they think is my guess.
Eating human won’t make you immortal. In fact it’s quite bad for you. Too much iron or something. Turning to cannabalism will land you in jail or on the run. It’s kind of a stupid idea to mess around with.
My answer to the question: Why not? Because you are human and you are not immortal. You do need shelter and food…
This type of vampirism sounds like something out of the Twilight movies, or Anne Rice books…
No immortality. You can only get that through Jesus’ salvation, and the physical still perishes unless you’re alive at the second coming…
There is a real form of vampirism but it has nothing to do with sucking blood, killing people, eating flesh, or any of the stuff portrayed in most books and movies.
It deals mainly with feeding on others energies, and a spiritual practice.
The bloodsucker myth is basically a Church invention, LOL
The main premise of Christianity was the promise of salvation as achieved through subservience to the bishops, aligned with the perpetuation of a serene afterlife in a heavenly environment. But how could the alternative notion of Hell be portrayed on Earth in a manner which would scare the life out of tentative believers or reluctant worshippers? Somehow Hell had to be given an earthly form, and what better than the notion of dead people who could not complete their dying because they were so hideously unclean - people who were, in fact, ‘undead’. Such people, said the churchmen, had to roam the mortal world like lost souls with no dimension of life or death to call their own.
The concept was good enough in part, but it was really no more scary than the idea of ghosts with a physical form. Something else was needed; these beings had to become predators in order to make people fearful enough to lean wholly upon the Church for deliverance. So, what would all people, rich and poor alike, fear to lose the most if they were seeking salvation for their souls?
The answer to this question was found in the Bible - to be precise, in the Old Testament book of Leviticus, which states: “It is the blood that maketh an atonement for the soul”. It was therefore decided that the undead creatures would be said to prey upon people’s blood, thereby divesting them of the route to atonement.
A problem to overcome in this regard was the fact that this Leviticus statement was part of a very ancient Hebrew law and had little or nothing to do with Christianity. But a way was soon found to cope with the anomaly when the Church ruled that every good Christian who partook of the Communion wine was figuratively drinking the blood of Christ. This divine blood then became a part of his or her own body and any creature which then extracted blood from such a person was reckoned to be stealing the blood of Christ!
These bloodthirsty revenants could only be repelled, it was decreed, by such devices as holy water and the crucifix. And so the Church introduced a truly fearsome creature into its subjugative mythology. They were classified as vampires - a word which derived from the old Scythian title for a kingly overlord of the Rath - a Lord of the Rings.
In summary it can be said that the ancient progenitors of our culture and spiritual heritage have never been positively featured in our academic teachings. Instead, their reality was quashed from the earliest days of Roman suppression as the literal diminution of their figures caused a parallel demolition of their history - to be portrayed as the fairies, elves, pixies and vampires of legend.
http://www.graal.co.uk/ringlordslecture.php
No one becomes a vampire for one. As the person is dead and the soul is trapped in the planes of hell. As a demon takes over the body. The only way to be released from hell is when the demon is released from the body. In other words you would be suffering even more.
As you contemplate that. How about picking up the phone and contacting a phone line counselling service. As sounds like you do need some human contact.
No one is ‘turned’…you either are or you aren’t, and again, it has nothing to do with bloodsucking, fangs, bats, being able to fly, or having superhuman strength. You are either alive or you’re not…no zombies walking around. Demons only possess living bodies, and can be cast out by Gods power.
The majority of concepts on vampires is fictitious, based on pure inventions.
It’s not helping the OP and Obeah outdates christian mythology.
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Well, I don’t need to be immortal to survive certain things. Such as a long sojourn away from humans. But, I’ve calmed down now. I’m going to stick with the plan to stay where I live and go to college.