I saw my psychiatrist yesterday and we talked more about my current depression and suicidal thoughts.
He upped my antidepressant lexapro and said it should take 2 - 4 weeks to work. Less since I have been taking it for a while now.
I told him about my addiction to codeine. He gave me a number for a counseling service and i have to have liver function tests because of the amount of paracetemol I am taking (the tablets I take are a mix of paracetemol and codeine).
He is also going to look into other addiction services for me before our next appointment in a fortnight.
I really want to stop the codeine. I’ve become addicted to it and I am disgusted in myself. But I feel so free and easy when I take it. It’s such a relief from the depression and suicidal thoughts.
I am so disappointed in myself. I lie about how much I take and I hide what I have on hand.
I put a ring on lay buy. It should take three pays to get it. This is my incentive to stop codeine. Wean off over the three fortnights.
Thanks for reading. If anyone has any tips on how to break my addiction, I would really appreciate it.
It’s tough…but you can’t blame yourself…addiction is recognized as a disease in the dsm since 1953. That said like any other disease you must take responsibility for it. You can’t use it as a cop out but acknowledge you are not at fault, it is a chemical imbalance in your brain. Naltrexone has really helped me with alcoholism, and it helps opiate users too. You may also want to try aa meetings. Maybe check yourself into a detox if you have to. My thoughts go out to you. Wouldn’t wanna see that nasty codeine habit turn even worse…it’s a progressive disease. Gets worse and harder as you get older. So quit now. Good luck.
I was addicted to heroin and other opiates for years. The best advice I can give is that you have to deep down genuinely want to quit, otherwise it won’t work. I also went through a suboxone program to help with the physical aspects of addiction, which made it easier to address the mental and emotional aspects. Good luck, it’s not an easy thing to do, but I can promise it is worth it.
@anon68237654 that’s what I’m worried about. The next step is heroin because I’m building up a fast tolerance to the effects of codeine and having to take more and more.
Thanks everyone for your replies and you support. I really want to try to quit.
It’s very difficult being that honest and telling the exact amounts I am taking.
When I lie and am modest about the amount I take, I am met with shocked face from Mr Turtle.
I was honest about the amount (the whole amount) with my psychiatrist. Then he wanted to bring Mr Turtle in to discuss it. I made my psychiatrist promise not to tell Mr Turtle how much I am really having.
This is something I won’t tell my mum about though. She doesn’t need to know.
